Very close to becoming a missing person

[Iguessyourestuckwithme]

I'm not in a good headspace.
.

I've gone away for a few days to get some distance.

Nobody knows where I am but I'm keeping in touch.

Noone would notice anyway.

I hope the time away helps OP. You ARE important x

I hope having some time and space to yourself is helpful to you.
You can always call the Samaritans if talking would be helpful. The number is 116 123.
Stay safe, and make sure you aren't putting yourself at risk.

Is there a bad situation you are trying to escape from?

I hope you feel better soon. Xxx

Do not be afraid to seek professional help or reach out to talk to one.
Thinking of you.

Missing people charity will help you and can keep people informed on your behalf, I think they’d be great for you to get in contact with www.missingpeople.org.uk/ it sounds like you’re in a very difficult place I hope the time away helps

Would it help to talk to us about your situation?

Hi Iguessyourestuckwithme,

We're so sorry that you're feeling this way.

We can see you're getting some good support from other Mumsnetters, but we thought we'd also add a link to our Mental Health resources as there are many organisations listed which could give you some more support in real life. The Samaritans are there for you too, by emailing [email protected] or calling 116 123, any time.

If you find texting easier, please take a look at Shout's website. Shout 85258 is a free, confidential, anonymous text support service. Its trained volunteers are available all hours of the day and night to listen and support you to get to a calmer and safe place.

Here too is a link to Mind's support page which has tips for everyday living which can help when you're feeling overwhelmed.

We hope things start getting a bit easier for you soon.

@Iguessyourestuckwithme

Did you want to talk?

Thanks. I really don't want to just vanish into thin air I know that I have people who love me even if it's in their own way but it just feels like it would be easier for everyone.

I can guarantee it wouldn't be easier for everyone. Please contact any of the services available and keep checking in with family or asking someone to do so on your behalf.

HI OP, I am a Samaritans volunteer (not pm shift currently) and id just like to echo the sentiment that you can call us at any time. We are there to listen, not to judge or to convince you to do anything, just to listen, and help you to sort your thoughts.

Hi again, OP.
Can you confirm that you have access to food and drink, and that you are somewhere warm and dry, so that you can get a good night's sleep?

At the risk of sounding patronising- please don't make any long term decisions based on short term feelings. Talking to someone can be good, even about nothing. Hope you are ok. If you are not ok, it doesn't mean that you won't be again

Hello OP, how are you this morning?

I got in touch with a friend who knew I'd gone away but wasn't aware I might not be coming back. She's made me promise to keep in touch everyday even if it's just to let her know where I am. I'm basically just bumming trains and moving city to city. Should have gone back today but thinking I'll be away for a bit. Feel a bit calmer today not sure if it's the city I'm in but I feel at peace after a stressful few weeks

How you feel now isn't the truth but it feels it x

Silly question but do you have your car with you? We had some torrential rain last night plus thunder and lightning.

I hope you’re ok and see something on your travels that is new to you or that you enjoy. When I’m at my lowest something always appears - a shooting star or a patch of really good blackberries or a friendly horse in a field! I hope that doesn’t sound patronising but you’d be surprised how often it happens.

Sorry, just read the bit about using trains.

Hey OP, I just want to come at this from another angle.

I'm the daughter of a mum with Bipolar (and a whole heap of other mental and physical health issues).
While I completely understand your need for space and escape right now, please ensure that you are in constant contact with those that love you.

My DM has ran away twice. I am lucky that I know her inside out and knew where to go looking, but that paralysing fear I had until I got her is horrific - especially as she doesn't answer calls or texts so I think the worst.

Even if you're not ready to go home yet, that's OK - but keep everyone's mind at rest so they know you are OK and safe and making safe decisions. It also creates less of a drama for you to deal with when you are ready to see them again.

As others have said - please do reach out to the samaritons who can help you organise your thoughts . X

Hi OP

Do you have somewhere to stay at night?

Trust me, nobody is better off without you.

Is there a certain situation that you’re trying to escape or that is distressing you?

I know I don’t know you but I’m here to talk and worried about you.

I am glad you have a friend who has persuaded you to keep in touch. I hope they help you realise that people would miss you if you disappeared tempting as it would be. I hope being away helps. Maybe take the time to think about what needs to change so you feel more able to deal with life at home when you return. That might involve professional support, and that's ok. Take care.

Couldn't read and run, as they say.

I'm glad that you have a friend to check in on you. I've been in your position before, my DH spends half of his life needing to convince me that people care about me and I don't need to disappear/shouldn't take my own life.

I promise you, the feeling is transient; though it may not feel that way right now. The trick is to keep surviving until the depressive episode goes away - which it eventually will.

OP things will get better, they will. Sometimes it just takes time. No matter how hopeless you feel please just hang on. Do keep in touch with your friend. As you travel try and find some peace out there, in the simple things, the clouds, the breeze anything. Just try to feel something positive, it doesn't matter how small. I'm a stranger on the Internet and I'm sending you love.

I get you, I feel a burden due to being reliant on my sons, I'm losing my mobility, I hate it, I've been so independent and physical all my life. I'm not very good with interactions with other humans, but I'm honest and down to earth if you need an ear, a chat or even someone to rage at, then I'm here.