Can someone please talk to me - I'm really struggling.

[Notgettingbetter]

I'm in a really bad place with my depression. Locked myself in the bathroom for a cry. I've tried so hard today - eventually go out of bed, did a bit of washing up. Trying to play with my little girl but I'm a mess.

I was crying on the phone to the doctor and I told him I was worried I would end up bedridden for weeks like I was earlier this year. I was barely eating and quite out of it.

My partner is talking to him again now.

How did it go for you with the doctor call, op?

The doctor has made an urgent referral to the mental health team. (Apparently he said this in an email to me this morning but I never got it.) I think a nurse will call me but presumably not before Monday.

Trying to now think of anything that might help. I wish we had a nice family member we could ask to come and stay and help out. Even just to play with our daughter and listen to our troubles a bit
My partner got really stressed and worn out having to do everything when I was really unwell and bedridden back in the spring.

I think you could get a referral to homestart OP. I had that when i had postnatal depression. Was an older woman who also gave me lots of emotional support. The mental health teams are usually headed by a consultant psychiatrist.

@Notgettingbetter I hope today is a better day for you and you're able to find something to help you at least relax a little.

You should be so proud of yourself that you have reached out for help (not all of us do). Step by step you will get there. Be kind to yourself (nobody can help being ill, no matter what the illness!)