Ah here we are midnight folk, what brings you here tonight?
I'm properly livid having worked myself into a state of hopelessness. I had a massive piece of work dumped on me yesterday due to staff sickness. Fine, I'll help out. Worked on it until 2am. Ok, well I've done my bit.
No..contacted again to do another part of it. Ok, I didn't have anything urgent on. I'll clear the decks and do it.
Failing to take into account that my brain was mush from last night and I can't bloody do it.
In my head I've gone all shouty, blaming other people and I am going round in circles. They want it for tomorrow morning and I just don't think I can do it and it's unfair because I've been given something someone else started badly.
I also like to do things properly so my perfection gremlins are out in full force criticising everything I do.
I'm actually pretty pissed off in case you can't tell
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I've worked really hard to get to a good place, now I'm sat in one of those 'oh I know how this goes' mental spirals waiting to fall asleep or get sudden inspiration (unlikely), where every option feels like a lose.
I mean it has to be done and everyone will be cross if I did nothing.