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I think I'm having a nervous breakdown

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:02

I dont even know if that is the right phrase. I feel like I'm mentally dying. Like I'm being tortured.

What can I do?

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SunshineCake · 19/06/2021 19:03

Can you ring a friend to talk to?

Ring 111 if you are really struggling and need professional help.

Post on here?

I'm sorry you are struggling.

TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:05

Do you have any kind of private healthcare? They all have MH numbers.

Samaritans

If you're really in trouble, and co spidering hurting yourself then 999

TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:06

Do you want to talk to us until someone with more knowledge comes along. I can stay.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:07

Thank you. I dont really have anyone close enough to burden.

I'll phone GP on Monday I think

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Serialcatmum · 19/06/2021 19:07

Where are you at right now? Can you get through the next hour? Next day?

If you can make it to Monday call the GP and INSIST they see you and offer support.

If you can’t get to Monday, call 111 and they’ll them what’s happening.

I went though a rough time 3 years ago. I had intense therapy and came out the other side. Albeit very aware of my mental health and ensuring I look after myself. Good luck xxx

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:08

@TSSDNCOP sadly no private healthcare.

Thank you for being around. I feel empty. Like I'll never enjoy anything. There are too many things going round in my head.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:10

@Serialcatmum currently laying on the floor in my daughter's bedroom.

My GP has reluctantly given me ADs but a tiny dose

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TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:10

Good plan. Meanwhile can you have a bath or try and watch some uncontroversial TV. I find a walk in fresh air helps. I've been in a bad place in the past few months too. Walking helps.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:11

I'm sorry to hear that. Walking is definitely helpful. I'm struggling with alone time with 2 small children

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TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:13

Mine prescribed low dose Sertraline. I was adamant I would never need AD. I was wrong. They have helped enormously. These are bad times, very few of us will come through unscathed.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:14

Oh I'm glad they've helped! I'm on citalopram and they havent done anything...

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TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:16

It takes a few weeks. You have to stick with them I found. Then suddenly, you realise things have become more in proportion again.

Can you get up off the floor? Maybe get some juice and a biscuit to give you a little sugar boost?

TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:19

It's a funny old thing MH. If you had a heart attack you'd be surrounded by care and knowledge and urgency. When your head seizes up there's just not the same help.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:19

I'm on my 2nd month of them this far.

Wanted to make sure baby was settled hence me being on the floor (wanted to rest, she wakes up anywhere from 4 to 13 times a night). Will leave soon

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TSSDNCOP · 19/06/2021 19:21

Well, that's a start if the baby is down.

Looks like you need the Gp to reassess. Be sure to be totally open with her. Tell her how you are feeling warts and all and with no apology. You need help and you should get it.

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:23

Thank you lovely. Last time he just said that it was very normal to he feeling like this cos of covid but I feel increasingly desperate x

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frysturkishdelight · 19/06/2021 19:26

Glad you're reaching out op. Keep talking.

LapinR0se · 19/06/2021 19:26

You need to get the baby’s sleep sorted if you have any strength or energy to do sleep training. It will be difficult for you to feel better when you are so sleep deprived. It’s absolute torture.
Also tell your doctor the tablets aren’t working. He or she could try you on a different medication or dose.
Sending a big hug

flippit81 · 19/06/2021 19:26

Hi Seahorse what's going on for you ?

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:28

@LapinR0se you're right. I just dont want to distress her and I'm so daunted by it.

@flippit81 embarrassingly little really. 2 young children that are both very demanding in different ways. So stressed about a variety of things. Every day is the same hideous ness

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flippit81 · 19/06/2021 19:31

Doesn't need to be massive dramas for life to be difficult. Young kids and no downtime and normal life is reason enough.

flippit81 · 19/06/2021 19:31

What i mean is - it's ok to feel as you do

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OhToBeASeahorse · 19/06/2021 19:33

Thank you. I just look around and everyone else seems so ok. Feel like I must be doing it wrong.

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Kittykat93 · 19/06/2021 19:34

I have one young child and often feel like this. You're doing a great job op, you have to keep fighting every day as one day it will get better, things wont always be like this with waking multiple times a night, the kids being so demanding and dependent, life will get easier, I promise.

some0advice0please · 19/06/2021 19:35

I have two kids, 6 and 11 months. I’m taking it day by day - having kids is hard and having no time for yourself is hard, lack of sleep is torture and Covid/no social life doesn’t help!
I’m also on sertraline, I was on citalopram years ago and it was not helpful. If it’s not helping you, ask your doctor to try something else.
Hope you start to feel better soon xx