I honestly feel like I've failed in life and it's mainly because I keep comparing myself to other people!
I am 30 and I have not worked out what I want to do career wise in my life. I was doing a job I really enjoyed in my early 20's. It had a lot of coding involved and I loved it, but the software I was using was on its way out of the market and I thought it was a good time to make a career change. The other reasons for the career change was that career only paid well if you worked as a self employed contractor or as a consultant. I did not want to be working away from home a lot as I was married and want kids.
I made a career moved when I was 26. It's been 3.5 yrs since made the move into a professional role. I've had to sit many exams for this role and in about 2 years I should be finished. The issue is I hate it. I don't enjoy it at all. I have no interest in it.
I just can't stop comparing myself to other people my age who have chosen and successfully stuck to a career and now earn a good income from it whereas I am just hopping from job to job trying to work out what I want. I feel really disappointed in myself.
Most of the people I speak to say " no one likes their jobs just get a hobby". But I am doing this for 35-40 hours a week, if I don't enjoy it how can I be good at it and be successful in it.
I feel really guilty about feeling upset over this with people losing their jobs and people being put on furlough and here's me unhappy with a job/career path that many people try to get into.