Azaylia Cain

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I can’t stop thinking about this poor little girl. My heart hurts for her family. I know she’s not the only child fighting a life threatening illness but she’s all I’ve thought about today.

Sorry if this post upsets anybody that is familiar with this little girl.

The most recent stories from Safiyya have floored me. I'm pretending to have a shower so DH doesn't catch me sobbing.
I just don't know how they're being so strong. I would be broken. That little girl will never know fear, or sadness or worry thanks to them. They are incredible.

I just can’t bear it, I just want to help them and her so much. I just can’t imagine how awful it must be watching her decline so rapidly from having hope in the last weeks.

I’ve just been sobbing to my husband about it. He wants me unfollow because it’s upsetting me so much but I feel like I can’t.

Safiyya won’t let Azaylia see her upset though will she? I admire her so much.
I’m another one finding it really tough watching their videos but I’m also so touched by their story that I can’t not know what’s happening

@OllietheOwlyou explained it so well, I keep checking on them but I get emotional every time. Maybe I was just ignorant to what parents/families went through before?

They’re so strong to hold it together all the time, I don’t know how they do it.

Ashley looks broken, absolutely broken and in shock. God knows what they will be like when she passed 😪 heartbreaking

The video of her singing miracles had me sobbing again, cause the words just ring so true. I honestly feel so heavy and emotionally exhausted since the news of her not being able to have treatment. My DP has told me I should stop looking at the videos as they're just making me too upset but like you all, I just can't stop. My DP says that but he keeps asking me how she is doing too. I've tried not to check as often today an just spent the day with my twins, feeling like the most grateful person in the world. All trivial issues just don't seem to matter anymore when they're waiting for their daughter to die. That must be the most scariest, painful feeling in the world.
I had a go at my DP today over something silly. He maoned about being stuck at a red light an I just couldn't help but tell him off for moaning about something so stupid when peoples kids are dying.

I feel very similar to you @MrsDSalvatore. It puts everything into perspective doesn’t it? I’ve been cuddling my DC extra tight and just feel more patient with them because I just feel so bloody lucky to have them.

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The video of her singing miracles had me sobbing again, cause the words just ring so true. I honestly feel so heavy and emotionally exhausted since the news of her not being able to have treatment. My DP has told me I should stop looking at the videos as they're just making me too upset but like you all, I just can't stop. My DP says that but he keeps asking me how she is doing too. I've tried not to check as often today an just spent the day with my twins, feeling like the most grateful person in the world. All trivial issues just don't seem to matter anymore when they're waiting for their daughter to die. That must be the most scariest, painful feeling in the world. I had a go at my DP today over something silly. He maoned about being stuck at a red light an I just couldn't help but tell him off for moaning about something so stupid when peoples kids are dying.

I did the same, except he kept making digs because my 1 year old DD kept us most of the night and he'd made a mocking comment that I was smothering her and she better sleep tonight. I told him I'd been so upset about this whole thing (he also tells me to stop watching) and we need to appreciate that we still have a happy healthy baby. She just wanted cuddling, I think she's picked up on me being so upset the last few days and has been extra clingy, and it seems to have annoyed him.

It’s heartbreaking 😢

Yeah the words to that song are very poignant.

I know what you mean about getting upset yet not being able to stop checking for an update. Still hoping for a miracle 🤍 amazing they gave her 1-2
Days and she’s still going strong, playing & smiling. She really is one in a trillion

Ashley and Safiyya are such amazing parents to their beautiful baby girl. My heart breaks for them. Life is so precious. 😥❤

It’s so heartbreaking 😞 so sad for all

Absolutely heartbreaking , their strength is phenomenal ❤️

I’m sitting here in floods of tears. I don’t know why I keep going on to check to see how she is. She’s so beautiful. I have so much love for them all. Nothing has hit me like this on the internet before. Not sure if it’s because I’m a mum to a nearly 2 year old. No updates today yet. Sending them so much love and strength.

I'm the same, I can't stop checking for updates and keep crying and feel gulity looking at my DD happy and healthy. I don't think a story has upset me sp much in recent years. Simply heartbreaking.

I've been an emotional mess for days, I'm trying to keep busy so as I don't think about her but every time she pops into my head I can't stop myself from crying. I keep checking for updates and crossing my fingers she'll keep beating the odds and have more time with her amazing parents.
Safiyya's story yesterday has broken me completely, you can't help but put yourself in her shoes as she sings to her with so much love and pain. I hope they find the strength to some how get through this and I hope incredible little Azaylia doesn't suffer too much

Just checking in. I had a day yesterday with my family and kept busy so that I wasn’t feeling it so much. If there’s one thing this little girl and her family have taught me it’s to appreciate every moment with your loved ones, so that’s what I did.

Every night when my LB is in bed soundly I think of her and impact she has had on the world in her 8 months and I just know her parents along with all of us are so proud of her. I hope over the coming weeks we can continue to help each other if needed, knowing the impact she has had on all our lives.

This in abundance, ive learned so much from little Azaylias story, the main thing being to never take my healthy kids for granted.

I cannot even imagine how much pain they feel, and if I’m honest I wouldn’t want to. Safiyya has carried that little girl for longer than she’ll be alive and it’s every parents worst nightmare.

Quiet today on their Insta. Keeping Azaylia in my thoughts and prayers Xx

I cannot get Azaylia off my mind. I look at my 6 month old daughter and my heart just breaks. My house is filled with nappies, wipes, toys, clothes and thinking of her being gone while still being surrounded by baby “things” is beyond unbearable.

This poor, poor family. What a cruel world we live in. I know this will be the last thing they are thinking about but I so hope one day they go on to have a big family. This has shown they are MADE to be parents. They are incredible .

I'm so glad I've found this thread. I have felt down since their final diagnosis, and I feel so selfish for feeling this way. Her parents are the ones who are impacted by it and I feel like I'm trying to take a claim in their sadness by being so affected by it, so it's comforting to see that I'm not the only one.

The mum's posts upset me so much yesterday, seeing her hold back tears, taking as many videos as possible so that she has as many memories documented as possible when the worst happens. Gosh it's utterly heartbreaking.

I keep holding DS and just breathe him in, hold him a tightly as if my life depends on it. My biggest fear is losing my DS and watching this poor little girl shows me how very real these illnesses are.

It's the saddest story I have come across in a long time.

@LetsGoChamp I hope you had a nice day with your family.

@Eastereggfan same here, I haven't been as affected by someone I don't know as much as this story has a
affected me.
@TokenGinger I also feel guilty for feeling as upset as I have when I'm not the one going through it but I think it just shows the impact she has had on us all aswel as so many others. Being a mum, I feel like I can't help but put myself in their shoes of how painful it must be and I'm sure others feel the same too.

Am I the only one whose mind races when they dont post any updates. I know they are probably just spending time with Azaylia but I cant help but fear the worst

They are doing so well, they are being so strong for Azaylia.

It's amazing how exhausting it is to get up like that; you wake up from whatever tiny amount of sleep you've managed to escape into and then the reality hits that "yes this is really happening to us". And then you have to get up and put on your happy face for your child because that's all they need. I'm still exhausted from it, and we went through it in January.

Please remember to sign the petition I posted earlier in the thread if you have been affected by Azaylia's cancer journey (not my petition but it's obviously close to my heart). Child cancer is a horrible thing and it deserves way more funding and support than it gets currently.

@blindspots you're amazing and your strength and courage is truly inspiring. This story must be so hard for you and my heart 100% goes out to you and every other parent who has been through this. I have signed and shared the petition and made sure everyone I know has signed and shared it too. I've also set up a monthly donation to a childhood cancer charity and have added one on to my Amazon smile account to so they get a donation when I purchase something. Not much in the grand scheme of things but I don't want to sit back and do nothing at all.