Anyone else feeling a bit down today?

[wesew]

Xmas is over
New year but same sh**
Back to work tomorrow
Worried about school situation ( tier4) and even if kids go back they are likely to be sent home shortly
House is a tip and needs cleaning
I'm fatter than ever
Feel that I need to drink and eat less for the next month

Before I get criticised I know it could be a lot worse and I'm very lucky but I just wanted a little moan!

vanguard 💐💐💐💐

Add me to the gang of feeling fed up. I’ve been out for a walk though (what else can we do?) and that had helped.

Back to work for me - training day in school so fingers crossed I get some planning done. I am also back on the Fast800 diet tomorrow which I am both looking forward to and dreading.

I’m setting myself the goal of making homemade kombucha this year so off to find equipment I need and ordering the Scoby. I want to book a holiday for the summer too- just a holiday lodge in Devon so we can take the dog but wondering how realistic that is. We did get away in July this year (touch and go the week before though) and I feel I need something fun to look forward to.

Me too. I cannot sit at my dining room table in front of my stream driven computer a day longer. There’s literally nothing to look forward to. Nothing. At least we had Christmas to look forward to and the house was decorated all nicely. But now there’s just the prospect of months and months of nothing.

Same. Boiler is broke, I'm in private rented housing so reliant on landlord getting it sorted.
DC14 still in bed, stays up all night facetiming. Really don't want schools to close, (I work in a support role in a school so I'm at risk) DC won't do school work.

Missing my eldest who lives away :(

@LadyCatStark

Me too. I cannot sit at my dining room table in front of my stream driven computer a day longer. There’s literally nothing to look forward to. Nothing. At least we had Christmas to look forward to and the house was decorated all nicely. But now there’s just the prospect of months and months of nothing.

This. I hate January at the best of times because of this, but it's so much worse this year.

Everyone else sounds like they're having a much worse time than me so I shouldn't really complain but God I'm so bored of life. I don't know how many more walks around the local area I can do in the freezing cold. Really not looking forward to going back to the relentless grind tomorrow with nothing to look forward to. I feel bad whinging to any of my friends or family though as many of them are having a much harder time than me.

I’ve cried most the day. DD has been hard work because she hasn’t been at school and now the schools closed. I’m a teacher so that’s all up in the air as well. My dream holiday (the type you talk about theoretically years in advance) is in March so that’s going to be cancelled. Looks like I’m going to have a second birthday on lockdown. My house move has stalled entirely and no way are we going to get out of paying stamp duty now. 2020 was meant to be our year. After years of being on the bones of our arses training we had finally
Made something of ourselves and look what happens. 2021 feels much the same.

Me too. We took down the decorations today and although it was nice to be able to tidy the place looks bare.

Back to work tomorrow. Dreading it. Have just set our laptops up in the dining room and even getting those and the paperwork out makes me feel sick and anxious.

The news is depressing and I can't see any end to it. There are people who seem to be positively relishing this situation, screaming for total lockdown etc without a thought for lives, jobs, businesses being decimated. If you say anything you're a Covid denier, thick, deserve to get it etc. Yet they will still expect the rubbish to be collected, shops open for essentials, food deliveries etc. And I'm saddened by just how awful some people have been over this, dismissive of the MH repercussions, delays to essential cancer treatments etc.

I try to be positive, but sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and shut the world out.

Oh @TheVanguardSix I'm so sorry for all your troubles, especially for your brother.

I'm feeling the same as many Pps - just feels like there is nothing to look forward to. I've been pretty calm and rational about the virus but the latest figures from newer strain are just so high it's scary.

Last day of holiday here tomorrow (BHol for the 2nd in Scotland) and I've a ton of stuff to get sorted and just can't find any motivation at all. It all seems shit.

Good to know we are not alone.

@TheVanguardSix I’m so sorry. Hope your DH is ok

I felt like this yesterday, but a bit better today after a mega early night. It’s just the same old grind isn’t it, and almost a year of low-level anxiety. I’ve got a nasty injury so can’t even run off the sadness, which is what I’d normally do.

[quote ladygracie]@ifancyagreencard I hope you aren’t feeling too unwell.
I am feeling very sad today. As others have said - messy house, fat, unfit, not ready for work tomorrow (in all the ways - I am a teacher). And my daughter went back to uni this morning and I know I’m really going to miss her. Just a massive pity party really![/quote]
Yep, and me...just got back from Brighton...having dropped youngest back to uni. Feel sad, lost, cried a bit as I went into her room and turned off the radiators.

Yep - said to DH earlier no wonder why people hate January it is fucking cold and fucking dark and just as l said it, it started to rain too. So l cheered myself up by planting some seeds and looking forward to seeing how they grow over the next few weeks cos there is bugger all else to look forward to.

I think this is probably the worst day of the year, the Sunday before most of the country returns to work (see it’s a bank hol in Scotland - smart choice). And this year it’s worse than ever.

I’m another who’s sick of wfh and having no meaningful interactions with anyone for months on end.

I’m actually really excited. I’m doing a work placement starting tomorrow which is the final stage for me to get my professional qualification back after 9 years out of the game. I very nearly missed out on a job the other day but if one comes up in the next 12 weeks then it’s mine, no application and no interview so got my fingers crossed 🤞

*only just missed out

Same here. Teenagers at home, one until Jan 10th, the other Jan 17th. my husband lost his job before Christmas in an industry that shows no hope of recovery anytime soon. i’m studying and due to start new job on Jan 6th but that’s been delayed until Jan 11th. We have nothing to look forward to, I’m stressed beyond belief as my husband and I have not lived together full time in about six years. Feel this is the beginning of the end of our marriage and can’t be bothered with anything. It all got too much today and I’m feeling really hopeless.

Yep. At the start of lockdown everything was new and different and there were quizzes and calls etc. By April/May the weather was decent and in the summer, cases were low and we could get out and about. As soon as it got to September, I started looking forward to Christmas but now that’s over, everything seems so bleak.

My birthday was the first day of lockdown and it seems like my next one will be too. I know there’s worse things but everything seems so drab atm 😞

Vanguard
I hope your DH stabilises soon. Thankfully he is now in the right place. You have had a terrible time and I hope things take a turn for the better.
Please take care of yourselves everyone DH remarked I have been quiet today. I always get the Post Xmas blues and although we have had a lovely time, I was lamenting the things we haven't done. Pantomime, Xmas markets, Xmas 'do' festive pub lunch ... but I mustn't dwell, try and have hope for Spring 🙏🤞

Yup, feeling shitty here too. I'm frontline NHS and so beyond burnt out. Tier 4 has cancelled a longed for cottage holiday this week. I get a week of freezing cold park walks with a screaming toddler instead, every day I'm just waiting for his bedtime which is awful.

I suffer with SAD already, roll on March.

@TheVanguardSix

I'm so sorry for your troubles. I hope things go well for your DH and brother. I'll stop feeling quite so sorry for myself. Hope things look up for you. .

to all the rest of us too!

@TheVanguardSix

I'm exhausted, my blues keep me awake. DH has just been hospitalised with covid after a week of absolute suffering (thank you MN for support on another thread today). It's been hard leading up to Christmas. I've tried, like so very many others, to fill our home with spirit and warmth. DH is a frontline and exhausted. Christmas/Boxing Day was his time off and by the 27th, he was bedridden. It's been such a tough year. DH took care of me after I went into sudden cardiac arrest last Spring. My artery had torn. When the f* does that ever happen? You couldn't make it up, really. It's left me a shadow of my former self, though you wouldn't know it if you met me. DH has been my absolute rock, my stability. He's been a rock for so many, tireless in his effort to bring comfort to his family and his patients. I am broken. My brother's stage 3 cancer announced, "I'm baaaack... and I'm now terminal" in October. I could just cry. I try hard not to. But God, there are others out there struggling with way worse, I know. And nobody likes a one-man pity party. But we've all tried so hard for nearly a year now to accommodate this virus... we've tried so hard in my own household. It's just been a tiring, long year. To end this year and start the new one with covid in our household is just the pits. I am seriously bummed out. I'd be lost without MN. to all. Keep on keeping on. We'll get through it.

There may be others suffering, but goodness me you've had more than a fair share, go easy on yourself, cry if you want

Yeah- feeling bleurgh here too!

I'm a frontline nurse, and I've been off for 6 weeks after major surgery. I'm due back on Thursday, and part of me wants to go back to work, and the other part of me is filled with dismay 🙁

I just feel generally demotivated, lethargic, and bleurgh...

Yup. Couldn't get on board with the "Happy New Year" stuff as really there was nothing to celebrate.

Objectively, we are lucky not been ill, not lost our jobs blah blah blah but this morning DS and I both cried when faced with the daily walk. It's cold, it was wet but we hadn't been out since Friday and we needed to go and try and do something.

Feel more anxious about it all than ever. Going to be juggling work and home schooling again and this time not with the benefit of good weather...

Thanks for letting me moan @wesew and to all

I've been very low over the past couple of days. I have an mri tomorrow to go alongside a test I had to have last week which I'm scared about the outcome of (nothing dreadful dreadful but life altering and would need medication with some yuk side effects to control).

I have piled on the weight in December and with a shitty thyroid it's a bugger to shift which I have to because my bmi has tripped over 30 and the health risks are just horrid - COVID not withstanding we have a strong family history of t2 diabetes and that's the last thing I need atm with the other shit going on.

I have not been sleeping (peri meno) and I look really old and washed out. Barely exercised.

I hate my job, it's stressful and dull. I've been prodded towards a promotion that I realise I really really don't want. However as the sole breadwinner I need to put my head down and power through atm.

I was managing my COVID anxiety mostly because of the mild impact on kids but all the stuff in the press yesterday speculating kids were getting iller really triggered me and I went into panic mode.

The cherry on the top was that dh and I had made loads of effort with our sex life over the last year or so, really getting it back on a track it hasnt been for years and that has improved how we connect in other ways. With all the above plus kids in the house all the time, that's basically stopped again which upsets me.

But, I've made plans. I've planned manageable exercise plan, am trying to view my food plan as self care not deprivation. The health thing is what it is and at least I'm trying to get it sorted and dh and I are talking about the sex, it's not the elephant in the room.

Can't do much about the job atm but am going to say to going for the promo.

I've also allowed myself to feel down. I know so so so many people have it worse than me and in the past I've made myself feel crap for whinging but a friend of mine has been telling me I need to let myself realise it's not selfish to admit I am finding stuff hard and it's not a competition

That said I know I am lucky and my heart does go out to everyone else feeling shite at the moment. So tough for so many people