This is going to be fairly long so bear with me.
Basically I feel that my partner annoys me a lot of the time.
He smokes weed a lot (he says it's partly for the pain he's in for a serious injury/disability he has). I hate the smell and it actually makes me feel ill if we're in a confined space.
I think because of this he talks a lot.
He doesn't work cos of this injury/being disabled and I feel sorry for him cos of this.
To make extra money (he gets barely any universal credit including no disability payment cos they reckon he could work despite having actual brain damage as well as physical disablement) he sells weed to his friends to make a bit of extra money.
Therefore people show up throughout the day, morning til night, some phoning ahead, some not.
I feel like I'm constantly having to be polite and make small talk when I can't be bothered to see them.
Some in particular are good mates and stay for hours.
We don't live together so I can go home which is the saving grace of the situation.
He has many redeeming qualities. He is 45 and also has a daughter who doesn't live with him.
He knows my feelings about it all.
Sometimes I just want to leave. Other times we just roll along.
Thank you.