I’m really struggling. Can someone please hold my hand?

[NotaBunny]

NC for this. I wasn’t sure where the best place to put this was but because Chat gets a lot of traffic I hoped this would be ok.

I’m really struggling right now. Lots of reasons. It doesn’t help that I know someone who tested positive so I’m isolating, and now I’ve developed symptoms too so I feel physically rubbish on top of everything.

I’m not sure I really want to talk about the reasons. I don’t think I have the strength.

I just tried calling Samaritans for the first time in my life. I got through to a lady who sounded really lovely, but I live in a tiny house and my husband is downstairs. I don’t want to be overheard so I was talking quietly, but she couldn’t hear me.

She sounded so nice and I think she would have been a really good person to talk to. But because she couldn’t hear me, I just thanked her and told her I didn’t think the call was going to work, and I hung up. I felt even worse after that because I have nobody in real life I can speak to and it turns out I can’t even call Samaritans either.

I regret ending the call now but I can’t see how it would have worked if she couldn’t hear me.

Hopefully there’s someone here who can just be there. I don’t really know what I want/ need. I just don’t want to feel so alone

How are you doing this morning?

Thank you everyone for your kindness last night. I had a long bath and then went to sleep.

I’m feeling better today. This morning I thought I’d put it all behind me, but things are getting a little difficult this evening. Nothing like last night though, so that’s a definite positive!

The breathlessness is really bad today so that might be why my mood isn’t so low- it’s hard to worry about much else when you’re struggling to breathe Hopefully once my symptoms ease up, I’ll feel a lot brighter in general.

@picklemewalnuts Sorry for keeping you guessing. I’m terrible for trying to guess what posters are keeping quiet, so I know how strong the curiosity can get! Today I’ve been trying to work out the nationality of the man who’s lying about where he’s from (I hope you’ve seen that thread otherwise this will make no sense!) And now I’m curious to know what possibilities you’ve thought of in my case. It’s a never-ending cycle of intrigue!

Hi again. I know you asked yesterday but I have also eaten all the carbs today! I have had toast, pasta, rice, a biscuit, cake.... Not all at once however and as part of actual meals except the cake bits. Does that redeem me? I was low carbing but now autumn is here is gone wrong.

I have also been binge watching American Horror Story but not so much today as visited granddaughters.

I see knitting was mentioned. Do it. Very frustrating when learning but once it clicks you will get more and more smooth and quick. I find crochet easier but anything worth learning takes persistence.

Glad you feel a bit better today.

Hi 👋 glad you feeling not as bad as last night, even if that is down to breathlessness! I am fairly drunk so apologies for lack of coherence. Have ordered a Chinese takeaway.

Are you doing anything nice this evening? What are you up to?

@RaininSummer Definitely redeems you, and the cake bits are the most important bit!

I tried learning to knit once and proudly showed my grandmother since she is a knitter. Unfortunately she wasn’t impressed, and pulled it all out and re-did it. That put me off somewhat!

I got a crochet kit for Christmas a couple of years ago and I couldn’t make head nor tail of it, even though it was meant for beginners. So I did the mature thing: I got frustrated, declared that I’d never be able to do it and left the kit to gather dust for all eternity.

I don’t think needle-based crafts are my calling!

I didn't try to knit for around 30 years after my mum despaired if me and told me I was doing it backwards. Well, when I taught myself a few years ago I learned that my backwards style was actually continental knitting and perfectly valid. Don't let the harsh words put you off but maybe you would find some other craft more soothing. Needlepoint is nice and very easy to learn. Needle felting is good therapy as you get to stab it with a pointy needle.

Glad you feel better today. I found, due to therapy, that writing helps, gets things out of my head and stops running around causing havoc.

One of my DDs found the colouring in books aimed at adults very helpful too. If that appeals then you could probably find them online.

@NotaBunny, evening there. Hope you are still feeling a little better. Still here if you need mindless distraction. I enjoyed your vision of sea-going pigs!

Hello, I don't where I disappeared to. Probably lost in pondering all those mysteries!
I hope you are feeling better, that your breathing is a bit easier now. Everything feels worse when you are under the weather, especially when you can't get out!

@NotaBunny Hi OP, just thought I’d see how you are I know Sunday evenings can be tough (I know they are for me sometimes). But hope you are sleeping soundly.