Anyone else not able to sleep and need someone to talk to at 12.30am?

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Wondering if I’m the only one tonight or if there are others out there who feel the same.

I'm here. Can't sleep. Are you ok?

I’m not asleep but don’t need someone to talk to as such.
I’m on holiday and may have had one shandy too many...
Really I need to sleep. How come you’re awake?

Awake.
10000million mad thoughts raging through my brain.
I can’t do my job.
I can’t do it.
I can’t see any way out of it.
I have no one to talk to and I can’t express it anyway.
There is no way out.
I’m overwhelmed with too many demands and expectations and being pulled in too many directions and criticisms.
It’s dire.

I can’t sleep either, but it’s mainly because I’m choosing to sleep during the day when it’s so hot, and work late at night when it’s cooler.

I totally understand how you feel crosser.

I’m sat here crying and feeling anxious with a load of thoughts going round in my head too.

I'm awake, far too hot to sleep

Just waiting for DS1 to come home, he's been sat in his friends garden for the last few hours and I can't settle until he's in. I know he's safe - I'm friends with his friends mum- and it's literally a one min walk but I still can't sleep until he's back...! Luckily he isn't going to be much longer

On top do everything else going on right now, I am on a stupid very low calorie diet and obsessing about food all the time. Can’t stop though as my OH will be very disappointed as they fear for my health being the size I am etc. I guess I just have to power through. or eat chocolate in secret

Am in A and E with son who has taken overdose so am very awake and living a nightmare

I'm.awake. Back in the office tomorrow after 2 weeks off. DC first day with GPs since February. Stbx sent me a string of messages showing the extent of his "issues" resulting in me feeling incredibly anxious, on edge and really quite trapped.

So sorry @PanBanisha.

I'm awake my ocd has flared up and I'm having a bad time panicking about something that is irrational but because of the ocd is all consuming. I'm exhausted in my head

Handhold for you all ladies. Its the lockdown and covid messing with peoples heads and minds, tough going, hard to see beyond the end of it but temporary and will pass. How about some distraction, bath, pamper, jigsaw, book, shopping channel even ♥️

Such a hard thing to go through PanBanisha. I hope he is able to get the help me needs at the hospital.

The help he* needs.

@panbanisha sorry to hear that. I had a few nights like that.

If your son is safe, and being looked after, I would suggest trying to sleep. When the morning shift comes on, they won't know / care you've been awake all night.

The first time, I sat up all night and watched my kid sleep like a baby. After that, if my kid could sleep, then so did I.

Still a shit experience though. Xx

@PanBanisha handhold here. Do you want to talk about it?

Am sitting on a hard chair in childrens area of A and E and he is sleeping like a baby on the bed . Late teen so the room feels childish . Lucky to have a room I guess .
I feel angry . He has been offered help and refused it . I have a busy job and am single parent after dad left for another woman . I can’t afford to take time off work

Dad in another European country so it is just me that will deal with this

Waiting for bloods to see what is going on

feel angry . He has been offered help and refused it . I have a busy job and am single parent after dad left for another woman . I can’t afford to take time off work

Oh, yes, yes yes. Sounds so familiar.

See if you can get another chair. Seriously, you need sleep more than anything now, cos you won't get it tomorrow.

I know I sound harsh. Sorry. I know it's awful. But believe me, it's all a lot worse when you are tired. Along with every other emotion you will have.

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@PanBanisha

Am sitting on a hard chair in childrens area of A and E and he is sleeping like a baby on the bed . Late teen so the room feels childish . Lucky to have a room I guess . I feel angry . He has been offered help and refused it . I have a busy job and am single parent after dad left for another woman . I can’t afford to take time off work

Yes. I understand. There is whole other side of parenting that few people discuss. Do you have any nearby support?

Thinking of you and your boy.... hope he recovers soon... send love and hugs

Thank you . It helps that some one is there . I have older twins who have done well and are at uni .
I will have to take the day off tomorrow which will upset my boss and we looking at redundancies so any unexpected time off will count against me

And of course I feel terribly guilty that I am angry . Trying not to feel sorry for myself .
Will be admitted and see CAHMS in the morning before discharge so am looking at no sleep .
Have crazy dog at home too so will have to pay neighbour to walk him as twins working at their various jobs in the morning

hope you're all OK. awake with anxiety, feels like I'm being strangled