Will CBD oil make me a nicer person

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Only a semi serious question as I know it’s my personality really but. Anyway.

I am so angry and irritable ALL THE TIME.

Obv a million times worse during lockdown which is my idea of hell (I used to get cabin fever if we were still in the house at 11am on a Saturday morning). Not a people person. Love my own space and solitude.

Anyway. I get so angry. Mentally and physically. I am surprised the OH hasn’t left long before now. He always defuses the situation when I am shouting at someone or something. Inanimate objects give me the rage!

I look down sometimes and my hands are just clenched fists.

It’s worse when I’m tired. Someone suggested to me it’s part of peri menopause (I’m 44) but my father was an angry man and I’ve always been prone to this reactionary raise of temperature.

I don’t really want to go on anti depressants (I’m not depressed) and I don’t think it’s anxiety. It’s just anger, very different thing. I’ve googled what to take for it, nothing really pops up. One article on benadryl but it’s American and possibly theirs is different ingredients to ours.

A friend said they could get me some weed and I should smoke a joint. Well this is all good but i don’t smoke, wouldn’t know how to, and I don’t have the time or opportunity to sit round smoking joints. I need to be able to drive.

Would CBD oil help this? If so where do I start? I don’t know if I trust all these ones you get from little kiosks on the high street. Is there a premium brand? I don’t mind the cost. I think I need the strong stuff. Experiences? Thanks

Following with interest as Im the exact same

Ask GP.

@docusdiplo well I would but ours is shut with a curt message that unless you’re dying you’ve not to bother them. So I’m here asking.

Helpful suggestion though, thanks.

Yoda says ‘fear leads to anger’ and I believe him. Are you frightened?

I don’t know. Frightened all the time? Of my children? Of my husband? Of the milk when it falls on the floor and “for fucks sake now I’ve got to clean this stupid sodding milk up”?

Frightened doesn’t seem right. Tired, intolerant, bored, frustrated... I dunno I just want to feel chilled. I want all the muscles in my body to let go and relax.

I’ve tried the toes dropping off one by one thing by the way. Didn’t work. Just hurt my legs being so tense trying to focus on one toe...

I think your money would be better spent on counselling, which could provide a cure rather than masking the symptoms of whatever is up.

To be honest, I think you might also benefit from ADs even if you don't think you need them.

I don't know about CBD oil but I tried microdosing mushrooms for 6 months and it changed me so much but also not that much? I felt better in myself. Happier, more easy going, more relaxed, slept better. Home life and work life were so much easier to deal with. I was me but better.

My mum was like this, incandescent rage at anyone and anything for a good five years. It was meno in her case and she cane out the other side. Press the gp.

Well I was on Prozac for a time about 20
Years ago which is why I say I don’t think that’s what I need. I WAS depressed then, you see. Very.

I don’t feel like that now.

Always been a bit angry (so back then I was depressed AND angry and the pills didn’t stop the anger) but the anger has got worse with age.

Can’t believe no one has thrust a CBD oil at me, thought it was all the rage!

get the weed and you can eat it in a yoghurt

@letmelookatyourplugs how do I go about this? It sounds (delightfully) illegal!

Only experience of mushrooms was an ex boyfriend at college who used to end up making naked paintings at 3 in the morning.

@AriettyHomily oh I was rather hoping I was still the right side of the menopause!

@letmelookatyourplugs also only 6 months, why did you stop?

It might not be menopause related op, I’m 31 and I’ve been full of rage for my whole life. Not so much that everyone I know is aware but it’s bad, I’m always nice to people and helpful/friendly etc but I have my limits with patience.
Contact your local drug dealer and buy something like a 90 bag, put small but equal amounts in shop bought consumables and give it a go as I’ve tried the oil and I kept a diary to record the effects, there weren’t any :/ Good luck.

I am the same @clevererthanyou but my family get it in the neck often!

Well... maybe I should then. Why not! I just didn’t like the idea of smoking.

Once you find your mushrooms it's really simple! You take a microdose (0.15g~) every 3 days or so. You don't get high or trip. Too small a dose and also not the goal. I had a friend guide me through it but there is tons of advice on line. I'd never done any sort of drug before (I don't even drink or smoke) and I haven't since.
ADs and therapy just weren't doing it for me by that point so I was desperate for something else.
I stopped after 6 months because I felt I didn't need to do it anymore. It's been over a year since I stopped but lockdown has made me want to do it again. I'd rather do that than return to using ADs.

I realise I sound like a quack but it honestly did help me a lot. It wasn't a magic fix, there were downsides too; sometimes my anxiety was increased, I could be overly sensitive, I procrastinated more when it came to tasks I found boring.

Do you have a hobby? I know, I know, it sounds so cliché. I'm not discounting the CBD oil as I've never tried it and I have nothing against the mushrooms suggestion either. I hope you find something, anything that works, because it sounds like you're very caring about how it's affecting those around you. You're not a monster.

Anyway... I'm a creative person and when I'm not in the throes of a creative hobby I get anxious, irritable, pissy, you name it. When I AM enjoying a hobby, I wake up excited about what I'm going to do that day. If something is pissing me off I start daydreaming about my hobby and suddenly I don't give a shit any more. But when I don't have a hobby, God help my family.

What do you enjoy? Who are you when you're not angry? Even if it's fetish porn, it doesn't matter 😬 Everybody has the right to do what they love if they're not hurting anybody

I’ve always been an angry person, OP - just like you describe, I hate being stuck indoors, people irritate me, no patience, and silly small triggers would see me going from normal to rage in a split second. Lots of fury!

I got to the point a couple of years ago where I just didn’t want to be like that any more. I tried meditation (with not much hope as I thought it would be too woo-woo - I’m not that sort at all), and I’m really surprised by how much difference it has made. I am much calmer now. I have learnt how to respond instead of react (most of the time ). I can actually see when I am starting to carry anger for no good reason, and I feel much better and in control. I use a free app called Insight Timer, which has a huge variety of types of guided meditations to try. There are lots specifically created to help manage anger. Anyway, it might be worth a try in the meantime.

Cbd oil won't 'chill you out'
In the UK the chemicals that do that and also get you high have been removed.
I agree with trying to make your own consumables to see if they help.
The CBD oil helped me with pain relief relaxation and sleeping but did not affect my mood. As a side effect though it improved my psoriasis

I don’t know about CBD but there is a nice supplement called l-theanine which calms me down. It does lower blood pressure in some people though so is contraindicated if you are on some medicines

If it’s a perimenopause thing then try to work on overall hormone health with your diet

Maybe it’s PMDD?

If its hormonal related evening primrose oil may help.

Are you on any hormonal contraceptives and do you take and exercise?

CBD oil won't do anything for you, it's shit.

I spent quite a few quid on a bottle of it for pain relief, the only thing it did was give me a bad guts.