Will CBD oil make me a nicer person

[Bilzo]

Only a semi serious question as I know it’s my personality really but. Anyway.

I am so angry and irritable ALL THE TIME.

Obv a million times worse during lockdown which is my idea of hell (I used to get cabin fever if we were still in the house at 11am on a Saturday morning). Not a people person. Love my own space and solitude.

Anyway. I get so angry. Mentally and physically. I am surprised the OH hasn’t left long before now. He always defuses the situation when I am shouting at someone or something. Inanimate objects give me the rage!

I look down sometimes and my hands are just clenched fists.

It’s worse when I’m tired. Someone suggested to me it’s part of peri menopause (I’m 44) but my father was an angry man and I’ve always been prone to this reactionary raise of temperature.

I don’t really want to go on anti depressants (I’m not depressed) and I don’t think it’s anxiety. It’s just anger, very different thing. I’ve googled what to take for it, nothing really pops up. One article on benadryl but it’s American and possibly theirs is different ingredients to ours.

A friend said they could get me some weed and I should smoke a joint. Well this is all good but i don’t smoke, wouldn’t know how to, and I don’t have the time or opportunity to sit round smoking joints. I need to be able to drive.

Would CBD oil help this? If so where do I start? I don’t know if I trust all these ones you get from little kiosks on the high street. Is there a premium brand? I don’t mind the cost. I think I need the strong stuff. Experiences? Thanks

Symptoms of depression, the ones that I think apply to you in bold (obviously I could be wrong but my depression signs are irritability, frustration and insomnia, not sadness etc.)

Continuous low mood or sadness
Feeling hopeless and helpless
Having low self-esteem
Feeling tearful
*Feeling guilt-ridden
Feeling irritable and intolerant of others *
Having no motivation or interest in things
Finding it difficult to make decisions
Not getting any enjoyment out of life
Feeling anxious or worried
Having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harming yourself.

I think you probably have those relating to anxiety etc. Probably do apply. Some people react to anxiety by becoming frightened, others react by getting cross. Constant Fight or flight. Anxiety and anger are massively interacted because fear leads to anger.

Our Benadryl is different in the uk but you can buy Diphenhydramine it's in Nytol. The dose in Nytol is stronger so either cut the pills with a pill cutter or get the liquid to control doses better.

I'm an acupuncturist and would 100% recommend it for what you describe.

I've had lots of success with people describing what you are. In fact, it's why I went for acupuncture in the first place and gave up
My job to become and acupuncturist!

Smoking weed may help to a certain extent, see the world from a different perspective and read your muscles but for a long term change try the needles!

There's lots of good research which shows for anxiety and depression acupuncture is as good as or better than therapy/drugs.

Good luck.

I have never considered acupuncture but I will look into it, thank you.

It’s interesting that people seem to want to lump things under the depression umbrella. I’ve been depressed. This is not it. This is anger. I’m absolutely sure it’s a personality trait so not something you can change. Hence why I am looking for something to round off the edges a bit.

Personality traits can change -I'm sure we're not born angry. Whilst personality is partly inherited it is also formed in response to experience ie. Learned behaviour that becomes ingrained as neural pathways are formed making it default. It's hard work relearning alternative ways of responding and it takes a lot of practice and commitment to form new, alternative neural pathways but with good quality therapy, meditation etc it is possible. You're not a lost cause OP, the onus is on you.

@bilzo

Let me know what area of the country you are in - I may be able to recommend someone.

Watching this thread with interest as I am exactly the same. I am 41 so possibly peri menopausal but I've always been the same. My fuse is notoriously short and the kids are mortified if they spill drinks (daily) as it's this sort of thing that gives me the absolute rage.
I've just been dumped by my partner and I think my rage is a large part of the reason. He is weirdly calm whereas I'm a constant seething mass of irritation.
Maybe meditation or acupuncture is worth looking into.
I totally agree it's a personality trait rather than depression, although I do think it's heightened by depression at times

[quote fleurdeliz]@bilzo

Let me know what area of the country you are in - I may be able to recommend someone.[/quote]
I am East Mids, do you know anyone in that area at all?

It will probably have absolutely no effect at all. I've tried it a few times, there are loads of offers around including free samples. I used it religiously and it made no difference whatsoever. Waste of money.

Hi there

Try both these to find a practitioner. I don't know any directly myself in the EMidlands. Make sure you feel comfortable with them and at the moment, that their PPE is up to scratch. It should be! Good luck :)

theacupunctureacademy.org.uk/acupuncture-training-for-practitioners/five-element-acupuncture-register/

www.acupuncture.org.uk

@fleurdeliz Thank you, much appreciated

Didnt want to read and run. Found this to be a very interesting thread.

I am early 30s and have always been an angry person. Small irritants give me seething rage; repetitive noises, slow walkers etc. I do put it down to anxiety; I want things to be done yesterday, I cannot relax at all if I know I have a task coming up, I would rather get up at 3am and finish something than sit and wait around all day, with "The Task" being a big black cloud hanging over me. So, anything that keeps me from cracking on is basically a personal attack on me (in my head). Its exhausting.

I'm generally just known for being a grumpy bitch in my family which Ive never enjoyed as I do feel its only a small aspect of my personality; I'm kind, generous, would go out of my way to help anyone, but tall of that pales into insignificance if they had to "tag" my personality.

Watching with interest to see if anyone has viable suggestions for, as the OP says, "rounding off the edges".

I’m definitely open to the idea of acupuncture. How long would it take to have an effect and how long would one treatment last? I find a decent massage very relaxing but the effects only really last until the next irritation so not cost effective!

I also have a bit of a complex relationship with food. One of the things that triggers my anger is feeling fat (I’m not-I know this but I am not as thin as I’d like to be). But being hungry also makes me horrible. This sours many occasions where food is involved.

@pileon

It really varies from person to person.

A rough rule of thumb is one month for each year that the issue has been around for. But you wouldn't need weekly treatments for all that time!

After an initial few treatments your acupuncturist would start to space them out more as you are able to go longer without feeling angry.

My personal recommendation would be to find an acupuncturist who practices Five Element - you can use the first website I copied below to find one near you.

Good luck

I swear by exercise, yoga and meditation for feeling calmer. I like swimming and generally being in or near water as I find it calms me.

Following with interest...I thought it was just me!

I'm early 30s, single and living alone, and I don't ever plan on changing that. I will never have children, because I honestly couldn't imagine anything more irritating. I genuinely have no patience, and get annoyed and/or angry at the most minute things.

I also cannot seem to let go of my annoyance, and will find myself reliving and seething about things that happened days/weeks/months ago. I know I'm being completely irrational, but I cannot stop myself.

@FatBottomedGurl you mentioned repetitive noises, do you suffer from misophonia? Nothing induces my rage quite like someone clicking a pen, or tapping their feet, or jangling coins in their pocket...or whistling. Dear god the whistling

And the thing is, to strangers, or even my co-workers, I would seem like a perfectly normal, cheery person for the most part, but underneath I am a seething ball of rage. It is absolutely exhausting having to fake my personality every day. If anyone could actually read the thoughts in my head...

@misome Ruminating is the most damaging thing. Have you tried cognitive behavioural therapy ? Might be worth looking into, you can't live that like, it sounds bloody miserable.