Hi
This is an edited version of my relationship.
I am a divorced mum of 2 young children and have been in this relationship for 4 years. This was very close to the end of my marriage and I have not really been on my own.
Despite everything I still love this man.
He used to make a point of telling me when he chatted to attractive women, apart from that all was good for a year. After that I found he would snap at little things and offer me no comfort or support if I was upset about anything.
I found a lot of porn on his phone which he denied.
Found explicit phrases on his phone that must have been sent somewhere.
He has grabbed me a few times causing bruising once.
Everytime I think things are better the smallest things push him over the edge.
A couple of examples are ..I noticed his message notifications were off on his phone and just asked why because they never have been and it turned into a 3 hour argument. I only asked in the passing.
Last night I asked him to fast forward a part of the Eurovision thing on tv and he sniped back that things have to be my way etc. Ending in a two hour argument.
Anytime I have an opinion on anything it's because I hate that person allegedly and anytime I have a small moan or gripe he says I have a problem with authority.
I have never encountered anyone like this in my life as in someone playing with my emotions like this.
I always feel like I need closure before it ends but I am not sure that is possible.