Who isn't ok at the moment?

[Thorilicious]

I'm doing mostly OK, apart from getting serious fear over the unknown.
I've also completely over reacted to a spilt drink that one of the dcs knocked over...

Nope. Was depressed anyway but now nothing to look forward to, WFH so 24/7 alone and not knowing when i'll have someone kiss, hug or even touch me again. Weeks? Months?

So I might not go out for days then I might go for 2 walks in a day or to the shop for a non-essential bottle of wine or magazine because its literally the only thing stopping me killing myself right now.

And according to lots of MNetters that makes me stupid, selfish, a cunt, a murderer and they'd want people like me to not get hospital treatment if I got ill (which I wouldn't object to since I'd like to die anyway).

Oh and I don't give a shit about nurses apparently? I fucking am one, not every nurse is working on a COVID ward (no where near) but i'm still helping it keep going and helping my patients while also managing not making other people feel like shit but judging them when I know fuck all about their lives.

I feel like I’d be okay if I could get some sleep - I am having really vivid dreams/nightmares & waking up several times a night. I know objectively I’m lucky really as I work in a GP surgery so don’t need to worry about being laid off like so many people, and don’t have elderly relatives or anyone to worry about.

But then someone told me earlier basically that they don’t like me, and even though normally I wouldn’t care I’ve been in tears on & off all afternoon, which is stupid of me.

I'm really struggling here. I have battled BPD for a while now, aswell as anxiety disorders. I am trapped in a very unhappy marriage, which feels even worse now because I can't escape him even for an afternoon! I have two young children who are absolutely fed up of being home, they are both on edge with their emotions, crying at most things.. My youngest is very clingy and sticks to my hip most days. My husband sits back and allows me to take on the role of cook, clean, washer and everything the kids need, including homeschooling my eldest and entertaining them. I can't remember the last time I had a break.. And if I mention it to him, I'm just made out to be a drama queen so I've given up. I'm really scared, I worry non stop about my kids catching this.. Nothing feels normal anymore, I hate it. 😣

maudspellbody. Thinking of you and your daughter at this awful time ❤️

I'm not ok. I'm working ft from home, but the business I'm in is likely to go under in a couple of months. I'm having to deal with unreasonable people every day and I'm struggling. I can't give them what they want, so they shout. I'm finding it hard without colleagues physically around me. I'm finding it hard to see a way out and hw this will end. I'm not sleeping which isn't helping either.

Me.... I’m not ok.

NHS worker ☹️

to you all, you're all troopers, keep going this will pass it has to xxx

not knowing when i'll have someone kiss, hug or even touch me again. Weeks? Months?

I feel like that too. i have only had hugs from my children for years and they don't like hugs any more.

Today has been my not coping day. My eldest has been in direct contact with covid19. I am scared for him.

Hope today has been better for you all.

@Feelingsolost1 I could have wrote your post don’t know how much I can take I only work 2 days a week and I’ve been isolating for 14 days due to a cough that turned into a chest infection. I’m trying so hard not to lose my shit and walk out my house and not come back the only thing keeping me here is my kids

@smeghead90 feel free to send me a message, I'm ready to lose my mind too, we could go crazy together 😅

Sorry @Smeghead90 never put the capital!

Dh and are at the feeling I’ll and wondering how bad it’s going to get stage. I also teach and I’ve been doing my pastoral weekly check ins today. Three of “my” kids are reporting sick parents.

I'm not ok. This week has been hard. I am finding motivation hard. Work is a moving target. I am just climbing walls.

Kids are ok in fact they've been great, WFH is ok, but I feel like me and DH have come to the end of the road and there's no point talking to him about it now. It's hard.

I’m not ok. I wfh full time while trying to keep on top of homeschooling 2DC. I’m doing 12 hour days while trying to run a house. DH lost his job and is doing fuck all around the house. Going cycling / running and doing ‘important’ diy. No housework, kid stuff, shopping, cooking. I’m seriously thinking about why I’m with him.