I know it's very early for worry minding, but I work in the NHS and have to be up at 6 so it is definitely bedtime already.
I have been transferred to a role in modelling and projections at a local trust. This is a good thing and I am doing good, and I am the best person that they have available for the job. But it is long hours exhausting, incredibly complex, not my specialty, and puts me through the emotional wringer. It isn't anything like the challenge front line staff are facing, and I know that, but it is still extremely tiring.
Keeping track of everything I need to do seems almost impossible, as does tracking all the inputs and outputs and the changes I have to make and managing the remnants of my old job as well. It makes me want to cry. Then I remember that I am not even front line staff and want to cry even more because I feel guilty for feeling like I am having a hard time compared to the time they will be having.
Beyond this, I am worried for my family: I have 4 different vulnerable family members, though not in the 12 week isolation category. What I want most at this point is to see my mum and to give her a massive hug and to cry.
I'm exhausted and it's only just begun because I wake up in the night worrying about it all, and can't sleep for worrying.
So if anyone could look after my worries for tonight, I would really appreciate it.