What are your most difficult mental health symptoms to live with and why?

[SoleBizzz]

Mine are my emotions, going over the past, emotional eating, anxiety about what others have said to me and how they said it with good reason ie being snapped at at work, over thinking,occasional insomnia and hormones/menopause.

How do we lose our stories?

procrastination ans feeling frozen. I cannot stand to clran my house Because of a feeling of doing something wrong.

I have started to keep a diary and suffer some days others not depends on what is going on in my life.

Anxiety over things that have not even happened yet (or may not happen)
Emetophobia

It all sucks ass :(

Emotional eating and procrastination.

Anxiety over every single little thing; going over everything I've done in the past and feeling bad or embarrassed about it; not showering or cleaning my teeth; not having the motivation to do anything, sometimes even get out of bed.

Anxiety about flippin everything.

Not being able to let things go. Whether it's an argument or leaving the washing up over night, I just can't.

Feeling emotions really really powerfully. A lot of the time I'm happy do it's great and I get so happy I can't contain it. But when I am having a bad day...

Very intense visions when my OCD is at its worst with a terrible fear of contamination and violent thoughts.

Disassociation.

The absolute worst was the two times I have had psychosis, I have some recollection of what I did and what happened but also huge memory blanks.

I have BPD so it’s a wide range. I have terrible, all-consuming anxiety over everything. Every instance of communication, interaction, and actions lead me into a spiral of doubt and worry. Therefore, I tend to isolate myself from friends due to the constant paranoia. My emotions are also extremely erratic and scattered meaning that I struggle to contain any sort of emotions that I do have. Just to top it all off, I also have health anxiety, so i’m in a consistent sphere of worry (mainly about food poisoning) about my health.
It’s fabulous

Anxiety, comfort eating, intrusive thoughts...some days I feel so overwhelmed it’s hard to get out of bed.

Im really socially anxious and lack self esteem and self confidence. Almost every interaction can drain me. I constantly over analyse myself. Why did I say this? I should have said this. She doesn't like me. I'm not a nice person etc etc..last night, it was parents evening and my heart was racing whilst I was waiting. At the core of it is that I'm scared of people.

Anxiety definitely, I always imagine what possible fatal scenario has happened to my loved ones. The cat doesn’t come home at tea time I imagine she’s been squished. I do also replay every conversation I’ve every had where I’ve said something stupid, I imagine everyone involved is still laughing at me now, even 20 year old ones!

Intrusive and magical thoughts. Anxiety and checking.

Anxiety around social situations and over analysing everything I said and did. As a pp said, it's exhausting and generally leads to insomnia whereby I lie awake and go over everything I have ever said "wrong" in my entire life.

I usually avoid social situations like the plague, and for many years I haven't had friends. But the death of an old school friend recently pushed me into having to see people I haven't seen for years. That has led to a renewed contact with a few old friends, which in turn leads to increased anxiety (to which is now added a fear of death). I am taking baby steps with this whole process.

For most of my life I have suffered with OCD around food and germ issues. I don't generally notice this on a day to day basis, as I stay only in my comfort zone. However, the thread on people who won't eat homemade food has really triggered me, as there are a lot of negative comments on there. It has made me realise that there is still a lot of ignorance about mental health issues.

Ocd and Emetephobia

The ocd is an absolute bitch.

Procrastination and over analysing my conversations with others.

Constantly convincing myself I’m a terrible person and reliving any mistakes I make over and over again.

PTSD and a constant running memory playing out over and over in the background of everything I do.
Trichotillomania, because I've had it 27 years now and have a bald patch the size of my hand on top of my head, which means I've had one hairstyle my whole adult and teenage life, and it won't grow back.

Taking to my bed
Napping during the day
Drinking too much wine

Massive self doubt

I am genuinely surprised by some of the things listed here.

Procrastination? Comfort eating? Napping?
I'm definitely guilty of those, but would not have characterized them as mental health problems. Its interesting that others do. How do you determine whether something is a mental health difficulty or an aspect of your personality or character or simply a choice that you make?

I appreciate the comments about lack of mental health awareness above. This is not a heady post, I am trying to understand better how others see it.

Heady = goady. Thanks autocorrect!

I'd say panic symptoms when I'm very anxious or hopelessness that comes with my depression and physical health problems..when they happen ar the same time it feels pretty awful. I'm also a mental health professional and definitely different symptoms are more/less tolerable for everyone and there are some I feel very very lucky to have never experienced.

@Enoughisenoughhhhh probably because they've been diagnosed? What a silly thing to say.

Procrastination to serious personal detriment, feeling like an imposter /undeserving of nice things even when I've earned them (like a clean house when I'm the one who cleaned it), not having the energy to shower, intrusive thoughts, the fear (not a specific fear, just random fear over nothing, hard to describe but vvv unpleasant), comfort eating, digestive issues that come with the fear and the comfort eating. Those are physically very painful.

I'm much better now than I was a few years ago but I still struggle with all of these from time to time. They make me want to scream and cry. It's fucking horrible

Enough because they are symptoms. Nit everyone enjoys comfort eating as it makes them (me) fat but because if mental health we feel the need etc

I can relate so much to each if you. I feel less alone. Thank you ❤

Cutting people out of my life because I can't cope with dealing with people for a period of time, and then feeling really lonely.

I'd say it's a toss up between anxiety and suicidal desires but I'm suicidal far less often than I am anxious.
Worrying about everything. Obsessing and then having full panic attacks is really debilitating.

I’d say insomnia is the hardest thing to live with, as not being well rested makes everything else harder to deal with (anxiety, interpersonal communication, everything). DBT has massively helped with things related to BPD, but sleep seems to be my Achilles heel.