I'm going in for a section in 48 hours. My first baby was an emergency c section which was a blur and I remember very little of.
The anticipation and knowing all the possible complications this time is sending me into panic. I feel absolutely sick at the thought of it and am wondering how I'm going to walk into hospital without screaming and running away.
I'm terrified of dying during surgery, of huge blood loss or a haemorrhage after and needing more surgery, of the spinal failing and feeling the surgery, of something going wrong with the baby, of the spinal hurting going in. I'm just absolutely petrified.
I have so many thoughts running around and so much to get done before the surgery. I feel like I haven't spent enough time with my eldest and I'm worried if something happens he'll feel overlooked too.
Please calm me down.....