The house is an absolute bomb site right now. We’ve had a really tough few weeks between our twins (both with additional needs), my own health and lots of stressful things going on. When they’ve been at nursery (3 mornings a week usually but not recently due to appointments and illness) all I want to do is lie down, and then feel awful for being shit at keeping on top of everything. I have zero energy (I have ME and fibro) and DH is also exhausted as we get very little sleep because of the boys.
Every time it gets this bad I think that’s it, I’m finding a cleaner. But I can’t bring myself to do it. Why not? I feel like I shouldn’t need one I guess, like it’s wrong to palm it off on to someone else. And from
January the twins will have more nursery hours so I feel like I need to push on through.
I’m literally only thinking about a couple of hours a week and don’t have any specific expectations of what would need to be done - just do as much as possible to kitchen, bathroom and floors downstairs. I realise the biggest issue is tidying more than cleaning but then if I had a cleaner coming I’d have to tidy wouldn’t I?
Has anyone else felt like this? I feel like a failure for not even being able to clean the bathroom!