Am I developing PND?

[illnever]

I'm sorry but I'm not too clued up on signs and signals for PND, as I never thought it could happen to me. I'm 9 weeks pp with DC2. For various reasons, mainly financial, I have to go back to work today. It's killing me. With DC1 I had to go back part time three weeks PP but didn't feel like this, although it was a family business so sometimes she came and was there for an hour. Different job this time so I can't have see DC until I get home. Anyway, I feel like a shell. What's the point in me being here if I can't be with my baby? I've had to stop breastfeeding because I had really nasty mastitis and my supply dropped and I couldn't do it but this just tips it. I don't want to be here anymore if I can't be with my baby. He's so little and I won't be here for 40 hours a week, plus travel time. Obviously I don't want to leave DC1 either but they're two and I was a SAHM for a year. I feel so sad. Is this normal or potential PND?

I wouldn't say PND in those circumstances just more that you're being forced away from your child and don't want to be! Are you going back full time, any way you can take longer off. I went back PT at 6 months but I needed that long to just feel human again

Not really, I have to leave in 10 mins so I can't exactly say can I have longer off.

I just don't see the point being here anymore. What's the point

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Maybe you can take some more time off to be with your baby. they may even do sick leave if it is PND.