"People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through"
George Michael - kissing a fool.
Relates to my ex fiancé who I feel gave in to pressure from others to give up on our relationship. Rich boy, poor girl basically and each of our family and friends were telling us it'd never work cos we were too young and too different. He eventually believed them, but I know he regrets it.
"There is nothing wrong with me
There's nothing wrong with you...
Nobody knows what we had
Nobody knows what we had...
You could do much better
You could do much worse than me
I could have walked right out on you
There was nothing stopping me...
I won't live in your world
You can't live in mine
We don't hate each other darlin'
We just gave up trying...
Maybe I'm not crying
Maybe I don't mind
But it hurts just knowing
That your children won't be mine..."
Same ex fiancé. Particularly poignant as I discovered I was pregnant a few weeks after we split, sadly mc.
"Running down corridors
Through automatic doors
Got to get to you
Got to see this through
I see hope is here in a plastic box"
Wires - athlete
Dds birth was dreadful and she was very poorly and had to go into scbu and this basically sums up my feeling/reaction when I was "with it" enough to understand. I'd had a c-section and lost a lot of blood and almost died myself, was in a wheelchair and so wheeled rather than ran to her, and i was being discouraged from going to scbu but I couldn't not. I had to see her. She's a strapping 18 year old now. I couldn't have any more children without risking my life.
"Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true...
Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter...
Never saw it coming, all of your backstabbing...
I heard you're goin' round playin', the victim now...
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel"
Fighter - Christina Aguilera
Relates to immediate aftermath of split from ex. He'd cheated with a supposed "friend" but trying to make out they'd not got together till after we split, playing victim and trying to make me not believe in myself too. He hated that I was coping fine without him. I used to play this after dropping off dd with him or going to get her from him to give me a boost before his snide put downs.
"Loving you the way I do
I know we're gonna make it through
And I would go to the ends of the earth
'Cause, darling, to me that's what you're worth
Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead
If you're out on the road
Feeling lonely and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there on the next train
Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead
I always wanted a real home with flowers on the window sill
But if you want to live in New York City, honey, you know I will
You never know how it's all gonna turn out, but that's okay
Just as long (just as long) as we're together, we can find a way
And where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need (if you need), you need me to be with you
I will follow, oh oh oh
Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need (if you need), you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead
Oh baby, yeah (yeah)
I'm gonna follow where you lead"
Carole King - where you lead I will follow
Initially because dd and I watched Gilmore girls together (and could relate to the dynamic) but the lyrics are also meaningful to us, especially now she's 18 and neither of us are really feeling ready for her to be an adult, so we have a little in joke that she can travel the world...but I'll be following her.
It's been just the 2 of us against the world since she was a toddler, so its going to be a hard transition.