What's the scariest thing you've ever been through?

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Obviously you don't have to share details if you don't want to.

Could be woo, a painful or life threatening situation or x near accident or an existential fear.

I'm going to think what I think mine was. In pain so engaging in distraction

Sorry, that was long!

My ex trying to drown me in the bath. I opened my eyes under the water and saw him smiling. He eventually let go when I soaked him as I was thrashing about. He just laughed.

Also, giving birth. That gave me PTSD.

PND. I called my HV so she would keep my baby safe after I was dead. If she hadn't arrived unexpectedly early I honestly don't know what would have happened. Scares the absolute hell out of me now. I went from sane, rational, optimistic person who couldn't wait to be a mum to someone I didn't recognise overnight. It was terrifying.

My daughters attempted suicide, I'll never forget the moment I thought I'd lost her.

@ohbutyoulovescarves different terror attack in my case but I can tell you it gets easier to live with

When DC1 had a seizure in my arms. I'm first aid trained but was in so much shock that I just screamed and screamed before coming to my senses and calling 999. DC1 was fine and hasn't had another 🤞

Rupturing an ovarian cyst that I didn't know I had and thinking I was going to die from the pain. DH called my DM to arrange looking after DC while we went to the hospital. She heard me wailing in the background and (completely out of character) shrieked at him to call an ambulance.

There's probably more but these two stand out, still get emotional talking about DC1's seizure and it was over three years ago.

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Pregnancy. After six miscarriages and two failed IVF I then fell pregnancy again. She is now six months old but I spent every single day and night terrified. I'm not sure I will ever get over it. The lasting effects on my mental health are horrendous. Don't get me wrong I, absolutely blessed to have her but the sheer terror still takes hold of me every single day.

I felt the same after having my DS, I was terrified that something would happen to him, it took me 2.5 years and a failed IVF cycle to have him. I didn't believe I was actually going to have him till about 25-26 weeks in. I was googling 'miscarriage at 19 weeks' whilst pregnant. Then I was terrified he would die after he was born.

He's now 4 and it does get easier. I do still check he's breathing if I get up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night!

Big hugs to you 💐

Attempted murder: He hit me three times in the head with a crowbar. I won't ever forget the sound of it inside my skull.

@BettysLeftTentacle thank you.
I wasn't even supposed to be there, fortunately we weren't hurt but that makes feel like the shittiest person ever to even think that.

Terror attack.

I’m so sorry for your and your children’s loss, Pipandmum, I can’t begin to imagine how hard that must have been for you.

I have two.

1. My dad having to have a massively touch and go surgery when I was 16. We were so scared he was going to die. Was 3 days before they declared it a success and that he’d go on make a full recovery in time, he was in hospital for months though.

1. Attempted coup d’etat when I was a 20 year old student doing my year abroad in Valencia, Spain 1981.Tanks in the streets, curfew imposed. I’d just got back from classes to the apartment where I rented a room from a young married couple when the news broke on the radio. I wasn’t sure what was happening at first and the heavily pregnant landlady was incoherent, weeping and panicking. She couldn’t contact her civil guard husband who along with his fellows had been confined to barracks by military authorities. Phone lines were shutdown or just overwhelmed. Radio just kept playing military music between short bulletins telling everyone to stay inside, tv news was blacked out. It was all over by the next day but that was a bloody long night!

Running into a burning house and getting upstairs to suddenly hear my niece stop crying and I couldn't find the handle of the bedroom door, then being pushed by someone and then trying to get out (a policeman got my 9 month old niece out of her room) I will never forget the pain in my eyes and lungs and watching people give my niece mouth to mouth.
She was resuscitated twice and survived with no permanent damage.

My child disclosing serious abuse by his dad - my ex. The subsequent battle to get anyone to listen, social services not caring, police interviews. Him threatening me with family court and me being told I would have to allow contact if he did. It was honestly the worst time of my life and the system is sickening.

Being taken out of the birthing pool due to my DS heart rate dropping, then after giving birth, the midwife hitting a button on the wall and a team running in and dashing out the room with my baby. One nurse returned and said "dad, I think you should come with us "

It was terrifying, it felt like hours until anyone reappeared (it was minutes), thankfully appearing with my DS and Hubby

He spent time in Neo natal, but that was a fear that still takes my breath away.

Having and dealing with my depression and anxiety. It has a huge effect on everything and can make even the simplest things into a huge drama. It destroyed my marriage, I see elements in my DC and I'm terrified it will destroy any future relationship.

When i had my first dd when I was 16 and she became very ill age 2weeks and after treatment at 3 hospitals she died of group b strep.

Every time my ex threatened to kill himself which he eventually did.

Many instances of dv with broken bones and scars. Bloody terrifying.

Being verbally and emotionally abused as a child. Recently a family member lied her head off about me and made some terrible claims about me. Being told my DS is disabled. Being beaten up by my ex. Attracting Narc types is so biring. Something has to change. Being extremely lonely and isolated during the early years.

Being in a car that rolled over a hedge and down a cliff at the age of 15 in the welsh valleys at 2am. Still grip my seat when we're going round bends even now.

Waking up and hearing the fire alarms going off in our flat. Then my stupid DH trying to go in and tackle the blaze by himself, genuinely thought I'd never see him again.

My 17 year old daughter having sepsis and all the HTU team working in her for hours to try to stabilise her

Having to change very small and ricketty boats midriver in the gambia with 2 hysterical children and no lifejackets because one was sinking and they wouldnt let us off til a Swedish guy paid them $1000

A very close second.
Having to get my 6month old baby into the car to get the hospital as soon as possible as my beautiful, funny, loving amazing mum wouldn't last the night.
Having to walk out of the hospital not knowing what my life looks like anymore, not knowing how I would cope, that terrified and still does terrify me.

cant disclose my own but involving another was finding friend who cut her wrists,and holding on for her dear life it was like the blood was pouring out of me.and knowing there was nothing i could do but not being able to let go.being dragged off by paramedic numb and stuck in rigid position after holding so tight for so long.traumatized doesnt begin to cover it.she should still be here.and maybe i could have saved her is a though every single day.what could i have done,held differently.

7 year old diagnosed with with cancer. Abject terror. Thankfully he pulled through x

Watching my daughter being wheeled away to go for emergency brain surgery and not knowing whether she’d make it.

Head on collision on the M4. My husband was driving as a car ahead of us lost control and spun round heading straight towards us. Husband was repeating "Oh no! Of no!" in a the calmest voice as this car came hurtling towards us. I can still hear the two teens in the back whimpering and telling each other everything was ok.

In the end the car was written off and I damaged my knee but it was a miracle that there was no other injury.

I go weirdly calm, people comment on it. Things that should have terrified me but didn't were

CPR. He collapsed in front of me and I saw him stop breathing. I did compressions and defib, the paramedic arrived and we got a pulse before the ambulance came. He was bleeding everywhere and I was kneeling in his vomit, staring at his lanyard pass doing compressions. Afterwards I couldn't even remember his name despite staring at the pass for so long

Being told I needed to go to theatre now, before I lost use of my legs and bladder and bowel. Signing the sheet with the risk of paralysis and blindness but knowing if they didn't operate I would be paralysed anyway

Getting a phone call from the GP with blood results and being told haematology were expecting me. I was just so relieved after spending years unwell and with infections that something was actually wrong