Urethral dilation ...

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GP has told me I’m likely getting another one in next while - I had one in 2011 and all I remember was screaming after while passing blood clots and black urine , and no pain relief except paracetomal .

I’m absolutely terrified of the same happening again ... GP said I will be anesthetised or at the very least sedated , but I’m not too chuffed ...

In the meantime I’m to up self catheterising to 6 times a day or so :-( - I only pee 2/3 times a day which GP says means I’m risking reflux ... I can’t cope with the catheters , due to sexual assault I don’t like anything down there . I’ve managed to tear myself when catheterising before so very wary of doing it again . Can’t see anything either as the ‘hole’ is sort of too far inside .

Don’t suppose there’s any advice anyone can really offer , I’m just fucked off about the whole thing and no one to talk to really.

Oh, OP. This sounds horrible. You poor thing. We don't have any advice we're afraid but just wanted to give you a virtual pat on the shoulder and say sorry you're having to go through this.

Gosh what a horrible memory of the procedure. That would not make you look forward to having it done again.
Please remember that no-one can do this to you without your consent. So if you really don't want it, it will not happen.
BUT you need to weigh up the cost / benefit thing.
It sounds like it really does need doing. (Sadly)
ISC is horrible (been there) so if the dilatation can keep you away from having to do it, then it will be worth it.
Mention to EVERY person you see at the hospital how painful you found it last time and how worried you are, and they should make every effort to ensure things are better for you second time around.
I hope it is easier for you this time.

to you.

I’ve never had to endure this and I’m sorry you have, but I’ve had a lot of gynae procedures which have been made more difficult due to past history of abuse.

I had to go for a procedure that my GP tried and couldn’t manage - she referred me to have it done under sedation. I went to what I thought was a consultation but it was actually the procedure without the promised sedation and I was too scared to say no. I have to mentally prepare myself for these things and it was a very bad experience.

Can you take someone with you? Prepare yourself by thinking what you’ll say if they try to make you have the procedure without sedation - hopefully it won’t come to that but I find it helps me if I plan for these things