Does anyone with anxiety/depression find nice weather makes you worse, not better?

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Just that really. I suffer from anxiety and a bit of depression which I guess is mild to moderate. Everyone else I know with this seems to feel miles better when the days get later and the sun comes out but for me it's the opposite.

It's a lovely day outside today, I can see that, I work from home, I've dropped my toddler off at nursery and I could easily go for a walk. I'm curled up on my laptop underneath my duvet feeling paralysed by anxiety and sadness. Feel like I'm surrounded by people feeling happy that it's spring and thinking everyone else should be out and about enjoying it. In winter I have free rein to curl up indoors with tea and a book, and there is no pressure to be outdoors enjoying everything.

Anyone else? I feel like such a shit person as I feel I should just be appreciating my life, who knows how much longer I'll have left on this earth etc etc, but I just feel terrible and I don't know why.

This is just a rant really. I've had all the meds and all the therapy it's possible to have and I still feel like this. I'm only 30 and I've had anxiety literally since I can remember.

I'm the same, I feel less anxious when it's windy and/ or raining, as I can hide in my house, knowing most other people are doing the same, and if I do have to venture out, I can hide under my hood on my coat

yy to hiding under hoods.

This is the first day in about 3-4 months I've felt this bad, and I don't think it's coincidence it's also the day everyone else is full, quite literally, of the joys of spring.

Sunny weather at this time of year triggers my depression. It only lasts a week or 2 before it goes but it happens every year.

Taking vitamin d does the same and I had really really hoped that taking it all winter would mean I would be depressed when it got sunny again but no such luck.

I'm exactly the same; I hate being hot or sticky, Everything about the sun makes me feel sick.

But I also cannot go outside in the sun so I do have an excuse

*wouldn't.

I can't bear the thought of another summer like last one, it was awful.

It’s well known that depression peaks in spring. I feel exactly the same. Perhaps revisit thoughts about ‘mild to moderate’. Some people tend to say they are ‘depressed’, when they actually aren’t, they are just a bit down, it’s different.

Is it really Oft? I didn't know that.

I always say mild to moderate as I can function in my day to day leave (or maintain an illusion of functioning anyway). And I don't feel shit constantly. I do have pockets of time when I feel ok.

Yep, the expectation to go out and get some fresh air is too much. I don't want to be outside visible to others with no hood/hat/umbrella to hide under if I do have to leave the house, which isn't very often.

Yes, I didn't know if I should say but suicide rates peak during spring and early summer. I always find this time of year difficult, can't give a reason other than everything feels exposed.

I kind of get what you mean, I feel better with nicer weather, more light etc but sometimes yes, it feels like everyone else is out having a wonderful time in the sun & I should be (I do, but obviously not constantly!) & irrational thoughts are triggered & I feel worse. Never a happy medium for long!

Yup. When mine was bad sunny days used to make me feel so much worse.

I think it was the pressure of feeling like you had to be happy and had to go out and do something when I just wanted to curl up and hide

Power of expectation. Everyone’s out being chirpy and raving about the weather and if you don’t feel the same, it can be more isolating.

Sort of, but for me it's the noise and some of the people.

Sunny weather means more people drinking outdoors, more of the shirt off men, more people in their front gardens being loud, later music being played etc etc etc.

Wish they'd all fuck off and die slowly. I actually mean that sincerely.

YES! All my worst bouts of depression have been in the summer. I’m fine in winter, love it, enjoy being cosy and love all the festivities. Summer makes me feel bleaugh.

Not usually but I'm having a fecking horrible day today and I've no idea why.

Mine isn't linked to the weather, but I do know what you mean.

Today I saw the weather, thought it would be great to get clothing out on the airer, then started thinking "What would I do if people stole our clothing??!", so procrastinated for so long that I missed the sun being in the garden

Yes I'm the same OP. I feel more exposed, less secure in my home with everyone seemingly outside. I love winter too!

I am not depressed, however Spring brings with it a massive sense of dread in me. I hate the bright migraine inducing days and the knowledge that the horrible heat of the Summer is inevitably coming. I hate it with a passion, but no one aside from DH agrees with me. I bloody adore the coming of Autumn.

For me it's the pressure to 'make the most of it' when the weather is good. I live in a wet area of the country.
John Crawford's book on anxiety is good.

I don't get like this in sunny weather but I do at weekends.

It's almost like there's a pressure to enjoy yourself because everyone else is and you don't want to, so you feel you're wasting the opportunity.

Yy to all these feelings

I have felt like this for years and never met anyone else that feels the same or at least admitted to it. As soon as Christmas passes and the days start to get longer I live in a permanent state of anxiety until Sep/Oct. Last summer was excruciating for me and I have always had my worst bouts of depression in summer.

I dont have depression but I like my own space.
I'm not unsocialable but there are times when I just cant be be bothered with anyone,
But as soon as the nice weather appears people expect you to be doing this that and the other.
Even walking to the car can be annoying as my neighbour will appear at the wall and hovers wanting to talk to me.

Love it when we get to Sept.