Please help understand illegible writing my dad made on his deathbed .

[kerstina]

If I posted the photos of diary entries can you help me . I have worked some of it out . Mom originally thought he took to his bed after lifting something heavy but it looks like he coughed up blood and had pain in his back .

The 2nd part of the first one mentions an emergency and waiting until tomorrow.

Thank you ! Could it be Borth his favourite place I wonder

I though pic 3 was "No hanging about (Brian?)

Second picture last bit

Keeping...
all of the’ .... but looking at the

So sorry op...

1. Sunny start to day. Had coffee and cornflakes with plenty of milk for breakfast. Emerging suffering. Wants/was tomorrow disagree. Emotional man/many/mam incase care (???)

Oh OP I really feel for you. I don't think you'll ever find an intelligible answer to all of his writing. I used to work in health insurance to used to doctor's handwriting.

Was your mum with him (I mean in the same house) when he died? Can you take comfort that he didn't suffer unnecessarily?

He may well have had an infection at the end which would result in him writing in delirium with clear phases. My mum had the same and she sent me a lot of messages that didn't make sense. She thought she was on a ship.

You obviously loved him so much. It's been 12 yeard since I lost my gran. 9 years since I lost my husband but he was nowhere as good as a gran!

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Felt really rough, coughing and blood doesn't look good.
Sticking mainly to liquid diet, cornflakes, a little apple and ??? Dot looking after (at her) return when ????

Last three words maybe
Look after her

Have you been able to see his death certificate ? Knowing the cause/s of death may help you work everything out. Was a postmortem carried out ?

April? In second photo and ‘last year’

A little Apple and ice cream!

Yes Dot was my mom and I am looking after her so it does make sense . Dad died in hospital the day after being admitted to A and E . He had been ill for the month prior after taking to his bed but mom said he didn't want to see anyone at time but really wished I had gone up there earlier . I only went up there when mom found him collapsed off the bed and I knew when I saw him 😔

Sunny start today.
Had coffee and cornflakes with
plenty of fruit for breakfast.

Xxx sufferer
Wants tomorrow disxxx
Xxx xxx xxx xxx

Felt really rough coughing
Red blood don’t look good
Xxx mainly to bland food xxx
Xxx xxx able to xxx. Xxx looking at/after
Return when xxx the xxx xxx xxx
Xxx

Shaky start to day?

Last line begins "GOOD NEWS ON _". News is a bit of a guess but it looks like the word ends "WS".

Feeling really rough today coughing and blood doesn’t look good.
Keeping mainly to liquid food and cornflakes. A little Apple and ice cream. Dot looking after me...,

Last word looks like ‘her’

I th8nk the last one say " No hanging around Bron/ Brian. Good Thurs or Friday "
Not sure if that makes sense to you?

I think

Dear diary, I had coffee and cornflakes

Plenty? Of fruit for breakfast

Third picture

Been thinking about Borth

Good tears and good??

Oh sweetheart, condolences on losing your father. Don’t concentrate on these scribbles, think of the happy memories you had with him and remember the happy times xx

I think it's "had coffee and cornflour that's plenty of food for breakfast"

My dad's name was Brian he always said he didn't want to hang around he would rather drop dead of a heart ache . Thank you all so much you have managed to work out a lot more than I could

Sorry I mean heart attack

Pic 1 - Funny start today, Had coffee and cornflakes with plenty of milk for breakfast. x suffering I was. Tomorrow different x many x later.

Pic 2 - felt really rough, coughing and blood, don't look good. Keeping mainly to bland food now. cornflakes all since April. I called (or might be calmed). Doc looking at x return when drowsy and (I can't make out the rest)

Pic 3 - Not happy about x (words half out the picture) Good x on x