I will try to be as clear with the details as I can without making this too long. I'm also NOT asking for anything other than advice. I've lurked for a long time as my mum used to use MN but I have just joined.
I have a very fractured relationship with my family, emotionally abusive dad, mum who gaslights that the abuse didn't happen and siblings too young to know. Ive just been told that in the morning i need to leave when they go to work and theyre locking the door. They genuinely mean this and I dont know what to do. I did an apprenticeship after school and got a job that I lost due to a long absence for extreme bad mental health this year. So I was working a bar job recently I had to leave as it finished 3am and had to keep paying taxis to get home but it wasn't sustainable on the wage.
I'm 20 and stupidly I have no idea how this works. What do I do to stay somewhere? I have no savings, no friends who live where I Do, no family. I have tried to look online for advice but I don't understand a lot of the information. I'm so scared, Im thinking offices that deal withthis help will be shut for christmas. I don'tknow where i'm staying or what i'm going to eat.
Please help me with what to do if you have any knowledge. I know I should know how to handle this, i'm embarrassed that I don't. I'm not asking for hand outs.
Thank you in advance for the advice and guidance.