Dilemma is yes whether to dump kids (and dog in kennels) and go up to London and do what? Support father-in-law mainly - he has absolutely no-one else. I know there will be other festive seasons, but the kids have really missed out on the last two already and so we had a lot resting on this one, but hey-ho - what's Christmas really eh?
Think I'm going to hang around tomorrow and let the C go up there and suss things out - she may well be stabilised and manage for a while longer, but as her INR levels are so bad, if she suffers a bleed currently it will be fatal as her blood will not clot - they'll know tomorrow as to whether they've managed to control that a bit more. Also her pain is not being controlled, but when they upped the morphine even a little bit, she is unable to do anything herself as she's so jerky and confused - not a way to carry on living.
I can't just abandoned the children for an unknown about of time, and I can't really just bring them with me either. I don't want DD especially exposed to this if possible, as she is a real deep thinker and worrier - she has been through enough in her little life already coping with numerous moves and Daddy being aware in scary places.
Brother in law and family were due to fly in on Sunday morning - they may well change their plans. I'm about to ring father in law back and see what they said when he spoke to him.
Part of me wants to be selfish and bury my head in the sand and stay here where it will be easier. My real side says that I should go to London and be there for FIL. The Colonel would rather the kids were happy, that would make him most relaxed, so thinks I should stay here for the time-being while he susses out what's going on. Thank goodness his work is being understanding!
Will be on my phone Lady D = just chat amongst yourself and make me laugh!! Tis what you are all best at.
FIL just phoned - he doesn't think there's much I can do tomorrow, but I'm definitely going down on Wednesday. I'm taking over organising funeral arrangements once he's managed to talk to her and decide if she has any idea where she wants to be buried. She wants a humanist funeral and a woodland burial, so not completely straightforward, but the power of MN has come to my rescue with some fab links and advice already!!
thanks for being here - sorry to lower the tone.
