My Mum, dad and sister are all smack heads ( dad is dead, mother I think is alive)

[Funclesmuck]

Ask away. There is nothing you could ask that could upset me.

How come you’re not a smack head?

Do you have any contact with your sister?

Very sad all round I must say

It’s sad I agree. I have contact with my sister. I love her dearly, and I tell her this daily. Sadly, she sees this as fruitless, she wants money or baccy

In your opinion and/or exprience is it possible for someone to give up and stay clean?

Great q as to why I’m not a smack head, I really don’t know.

How does it affect you in your daily life, or the way you think? Do you feel different to other people?

How did it all start? I can't imagine they all started together, did they? Did your sister do it with your parents?

I have seen people give up drugs and live a total clean life, it can be done in my opinion

Is smack heroin?

Have any of them ever tried to get clean?

How do you feel about it. Like I’m sure it’s horrible but do you see it as an illness or just being selfish or whatever?

Minor disclosure, I was kind of a wannabe junkie in my early 20s. It sounds totally insane in retrospect. I quit because my then boyfriend was hurt by my self destructive behaviour and I didn’t like seeing him hurt.

When I think about that I always wonder ... because people say you can’t quit drugs for someone else it has to be for you and I just don’t see it. I found it easy to quit. Withdrawals were a pain but I just watched an entire Battlestar Galactica box set to distract me and once it was over the only long term problem was that I’ve had mild insomnia ever since.

Yet it’s standard for things to be a lot more difficult than that for most people (which is why I say I was a wannabe despite physical addiction). I wonder if it’s just me or if it’s because the real issue in addiction is more the social side (which being a loner who got her drugs on Silk Road was never an issue for me) than the chemicals themselves.

Interesting comment dieantword. Can I ask how / why you got into it?

Smack= heroin . Parents were addicted before they had me and sister. I don’t have all the details of our young years . I know they loved us, but that isn’t enough when you have a house full of druggies in your front room.

Very sad and mundane, just liked loads of writers and musicians that glamorised it. Not in a “it’s harmless fun” kind of way but in a “beautifully dying” kind of way. Also got onto opiate abuse webforums and was obsessed with reading erowid as a teenager which sort of normalised the idea. There was one particular forum called the somniforum or something.

How do you feel your upbringing has affected you?

Do you have your own children?

What is your kids like?

Have you ever tried it?

Sorry my second question should read-

What is your life like now?

Was you mum using when pregnant?

@SealSong I’d like to think that I’ve had a totally normal life, but if I’m totally honest it’s made me the person I am
Today, I think about how lucky I am to be in the situation I am. And that’s my doing, I do lose sleep thinking if I had a “ normal” childhood would I be the person I am today?

I do have children, they are very drugs aware. They have told me of the drugs they have tried ( cigs/alcohol:weed) they hated the all and rang home to get me/ thier dad to pick them up. I have always said no matter what I will never judge

Yes , mother was using whilst pregnant.
Myself and sister were born addicts

When did your sister start?

How did you cope as kids?

you are so strong for not becoming a smack head, you really are especially given you were born addicted.

Monkey, can I ask why you think that?

My sister started the downward spiral at about 15. She was a beautiful strong funny girl, and had a lot of issues. I would give my life for her still, but she is sadly going to die young.