Well, since very early childhood, anyway. Too early to remember.
Today was the day. Last pound gone that took me to BMI 24.9. Not Overweight. Normal Weight. I keep checking it again on the NHS calculator, just to see it. (Had been about 12.5 stone, BMI 32, from mid teens to now, age 48).
Went about my business at work all day, being Not Fat. Felt like strangers should be noticing, and be impressed. Watched the eclipse, thinking "This is great, and also happening while I am Not Fat". I think for the rest of my days I will associate eclipses with being Not Fat. My first-ever Not-Fat memory.
Does it ever become just normal?
Still look a bit fat, though. Too much stomach, too much upper arm. I think another half a stone and I'll feel OK about how I look.
Life has been on hold, in many ways, since I was about 12. The things I'll do... when I'm Not Fat. I thought I would be more confident. I am, in a way. The ways that relate to looks. But not in much else, really. That's been a bit of a shock.
Your brain changes its idea of what's normal in your body, somehow. I don't feel like I'm a whole 2.5 stone thinner. You just shift to getting pickier about what you're unhappy about. Some of the time. And then you go back to feeling ecstatic.
I wish WLI had been invented about 30 years ago. I could have had a whole other life.
People treat me better. This is very awesome and also very depressing. People should not be treated with more or less respect based on body mass. But I want to be the person people see me as now.
I have actually achieved some stuff in my life. But this feels like the best thing. This is also, if you stop to think about it, depressing. Whilst also making me very happy.
I'm sad that I will never know what it's like to be thin and young at the same time. There was a lot of youth wasted.
I might be able to go to the doctor now, if I need to. For the first time in several years. I might even not refuse (for the first time since age 20 or so) if they want to weigh me. Imagine it - no patronising lecture. (Or do they just find something else?).
It'll need to be Wegovy tablets for maintenance, I think. Does anyone know what dosage to start on, if you're coming off 15mg Mounjaro?
I feel like somebody should be throwing a party. I also do NOT want my body mentioning, by anybody, ever.
It's a weird thing.