Today I have felt quite low. I feel like everyone is living their lives while I’m on the sidelines. What triggered me today is my child’s dad agreed to have our little one. I booked my nail appointment 2 weeks in advance, I told him and gave him multiple reminders. The time comes and he’s made plans and not told me. This upset me so much because not only do I have to ask him just to do things for myself he has the free will to cancel and do what he wants. I then go well if you can’t have LO now please take her a bit later. He then lets me know how he’s got a last minute trip planned to London after the plans he made during my time.
I already feel lonely as I find it hard to socialise and do things, as I got a 100 things to do. But he can live his life, doesn’t have to inform me or plan but I have to ask sometimes beg him or someone just to have time to do something for myself.
Has anyone got advice on how I can live life a bit more and not feel like I’m always asking for permission to live life.