Long term relationship marriage 22 years with a man who is clearly extremely narcissistic. I’ve tried and tried, nothing can be right. His behaviour is awful and he even lost his job due to his behaviour towards women crossing the line. Still despite all his wrongdoing somehow I’m always in the wrong?
It’s so hard to explain and I can’t believe this is my life. He has minimised his actions for so long I feel almost brainwashed into not trusting my reactions, as im constantly told im overreacting. I actually feel like I’ve under reacted for so long due to fear of my reaction being weaponised against me and being called crazy.
I’m a professional person and he uses that against me to say no one would believe me if I spoke about his treatment of me. everyday I’m belittled, or ignored or shouted sworn at. He says nobody would want me. He’s the kindest person to everyone else though. I feel like I’m begging for basic human kindness and it’s degrading. I’ve been in it so long, that I feel like I cannot trust my instincts or perception anymore and maybe I am just overreacting. He says I deserve the treatment and that all I do is cry. Why am I so pathetic in this area of my life.i feel like I’m going insane.