I’m really sorry about posting on here. I just need someone to talk to. Talk some sense into me, relate, anything. But please don’t be too harsh as I am quite delicate at the moment. I will try to keep it as short as possible but also give you as much context as I can.
I was in an abusive relationship roughly 14 years ago. I fell pregnant (I know) but I was told I wouldn’t be able to have children prior (a very slim chance due to medical issues) my daughter arrived. The best thing that could’ve happened to me, albeit the circumstances.
I moved away, he found me. Stalked me, I called the police, moved houses multiple times, he requested a DNA test to get himself on the birth certificate. To cut to the chase, I endured years of moving, contacting the police, social services etc. last year, he went to her school and picked her up. When I tried ringing her he answered her phone stating she will live with him for the foreseeable, citing emotional abuse (as I didn’t give him my new address) he told me he was calling the police and social services. It’s been 7 months since I spoke to my daughter. I’ve had roughly 13 visits conducted in my home (as we are in different counties) all coming back as no concern. Her half brother (my son) lives with me as well as her step brothers. It’s worth noting that my sons dad and I get on great and it was my ex that got the better of us.
He has accused me of awful things, drink driving etc. we both had to do a hair strand test, mine came back negative, his came back chronic and excessive so the court has ordered a section37. I have begged to know how my daughter is, he put a PSO against me last year, I can’t afford solicitors, I was told I could write a letter to her but she didn’t want to read it.
im devastated. I feel like I’ve lost my world. I’ve had to do courses, he’s now apparently taking her away on holiday next month but my stomach is churning at the thought of her being there if he’s consuming that much drink.
no one is helping me or answering my questions. I feel utterly helpless.