Started having a low, tearful mood with instrusive thoughts in my early teens. Was with CAMHS(?). My mother got the gp and then a psychiatrist come to my house at 18. I didn't have any friends and never left my bedroom. They told me I was anxious and had depression. Over the last 15 years I had gone through 5 antidepressants at a variety of doses. I have had three sessions of CBT including high intensity. I have been taken on two trips to a&e for suicidal ideation. I have seen multiple GPs over and over.
I have had severe social anxiety, low mood, fatigue, emptiness, numbness, lack of joy/pleasure etc etc for basically 20 years. I do all the right things that are meant to make me feel better, but they don't.
Is there anything else the NHS is supposed to be offering me but aren't for whatever reason, or is this it?
Also, my NHS app has me down as 'mild anxiety disorder and depressive symptoms', which feels devastating because what I have been through does not feel mild.