Me & DH just argued about how tired I am.
back story: SEN child + old dog + my ADHD means I don’t get ad much sleep as I need. I do work PT, mon-we’d. I’m 45. He cooks, I do everything else in the house.
The past 7 months I’ve found all this particularly hard, feeling down, exhausted & no motivation. I love my SEN child but it’s like being on a rollercoaster of stressful events even without lack of sleep.
DH is the type to sleep 9-12hr every night.
I've felt awful this week due to sleep de privation. My dog will prob die this year & my sleep will improve but I don’t relish that prospect. My SEN son will still walk past my husband to wake me up when he can’t sleep.
Heres the issue. I know I can’t talk about how bad I feel (including poss perimenopause) with my husband because of how he reacts. I just did & He said I should wake him up, he can’t help it & im unreasonable. When I tried to explain that would mean I would wake up & what’s the point he got angry. He left the room& returned saying the same thing, when was asking him to listen to me he left mimicking me.
im not saying I was calm or perfect, but when he reacts like that I can’t speak about how I feel.
life hasn’t been easy for me & I need kindness. I have no parents or anyone who looks out for me/who I could talk to. I try my best for my kids & love them so much but feel so lonely.
it’s hard to convey to someone how awful you feel from sleep deprivation. He doesn’t get it because I shielded him from it.