I really need some advice and opinion as I am struggling to think clearly at the moment.
I will try and make this as short as possible but. Will provide more info should anybody wish to know
In summary have been married over 20yrs to my wife, one young child and one adult child (same marriage). A couple of years ago I had a wobble which meant that we went to counselling together.
Essentially I love my kids, and my life in general. We are comfortable and enjoy what I would say is a generally good life. So why am I considering ending things?
My wife loves me and in many ways I love her. I’m. Not saying here that I don’t but hopefully what I will say next will help put context to that. I’m at the mid life crisis age and I have no doubt some of that will be playing it’s part but I am seriously worried that outside of our kids we have very little in common. We have a different passion for life and different interests. In the counselling we discussed two elements that stood out for us that needed work, one was our emotional needs and how we both felt loved by the other. Please don’t read that as sex though for the sake of clarity we are slightly apart in that area, it is more of outside of the bedroom that there is no flirtation, hugs etc unless it is me doing it. We did discuss in the counselling whether I was doing enough in the home but this didn’t come out as a problem (I do shar the chores, child care, cooking). My wife works part time and I work full time. My wife lacking confidence in herself also was a topic of discussion.
What also came out was that we need to find common interests outside of the kids and that is what we have also been working on. We are over a year later and whilst we have tried to change things very little has. It is hard to explain but I do love her but what terrifies me is that I look to the future and worry about what happens when the kids leave home as we struggle to engage in shared interests now.
I guess without sounding harsh I could describe it as comfortable currently. I wonder regularly if we should part as I can see how it currently is turning us bitter into retirement but then am ripped apart by what that decision would mean to my wife, kids and wider family.
I feel so responsible for all this but a: struggling to see clearly
I should also add that there is nobody else involved now or previously.
I would welcome your thoughts
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