Need advice support and a LOT of help please..

[Donbean]

For the first time in 12 years,i have said that i hate my job.
I need and want out.
My BIG barriers are:
1)confidence. Since having ds i have lost all confidence in my abilities, feel like a complete fraud,nonce and thicko.
I feel that my knowledge has been sucked into a black hole due to my lack of sleep, distractions and innability to get motivated.
2) My portfolio. It is a complete mess. I dont know where to start with it. The folder has dropped to bits and ive looked high and low for a replacement but have had no joy.
I have shoved certificates in it over the years that need sorting and it needs updating.
How do i go about this, where can i get a new folder from....on and on it goes.
Can any one help me?

I don't really know what to say wrt to any practocal professional advice, but I would like to say that I'll bet you are a million times more capable and knowledgeable than you give yourself credit for. Of course I don't know you from Adam (or his missus), but your posts always strike me as pretty well-thoughout and intelligent, Donbean..

Could a careers counsellor or the like help you with your portfolio organisation ? They could help you make sense of all your fabulous skills and point you in the right direction...

Folder?? what folder

I havn't used a portfolio for years. Just take any relevant certificates to interview.
So theres one problem off your list!

Confidence comes back. I was stuck in a career i no longer had interest in, so after having dd i took a risk and applied for a job completely different. And i love it! so glad to make the change and am learning so much.

It is purely the fact that you have been out of the 'circuit' that is making you feel so self conscious, once you force yourself into that first (and hopefully only) interview, you'll feel proud of yourself and glad you did it.

(btw, I'm not as dim as my typing would have you believe )

No i need a portfolio, its a given that you produce one...sound like a bloody super model dont i!
Thanks For your kind comments NomDP, I dont feel that i will ever get back into the swing of it though.
Things move too fast in this game and i cant keep up nor do i have the interest.
Ive been back for 18 months and it finally dawned on me this week, in actual fact i have shoved it to the back of mind for this long.
Now i cant as it is just too glaringly obvious now.
Im thinking that i shall try my hand in the same job but else where,a different branch so to speak.
I need a decent portfolio though.

Can any one recommend a web site specialising in office type stuff, folders etc?
This thread is sinking into oblivion, See i even get on strangers nerves, never mind my own.

Viking direct

Ooh thanks Hattie, will try that, and thanks for your earlier post, i appreciate your help.

Any one?

how about this kind of thing?
here
Why do you need a portfolio BTW - what do you do?

Thanks, those folders were nice but OMG! how expensive!
Im only a nurse but like i said, its a given that you produce an in depth portfolio of your academic achievements post registration.
Im supposed to keep one in order to re register as you have to prove that you have undertaken so much post reg education a year .
Ive done courses galore but have just shoved the certificates into a tatty old folder.
Now i need to put them to use to get me a different job.
DH has said that he will have DS for me one day next week so that i can go on a hunt to find a suitable folder.
Work is crap. i need to get out ASAP.