First day back and didn't enjoy it....

[Baileysismyfriend]

Well as the title says today was my first day back to work after 9 months on ML and it all just seemed so overwhelming.

I work part time so finish at 2 and my sister has my ds so it should all be plain sailing but I just didnt enjoy being back at all.

It seems really busy with not enough staff and it all came flooding back to me how stressed I was before I left for ML.

I used to do lots of work at home and constantly on my Blackberry but I don't want to do that anymore as I have DS to look after now and hes my priority when Im not at the office.

Not sure why Im posting really just wondered if anyone felt like this but it got easier for them >>>hopeful emotion

First day back can only be miserable.

You have to give it a chance (if you want to give it a chance).

You'll remember the things you used to like about it too and the things that made you laugh and gave you a buzz.

You'll remember a part of you that doesn't have to do with ds. Which will seem wrong sometimes but will make you seem a more whole person at other times.

Hang in there for at least a couple of months to see how you feel. Good luck!

Of course it has been a big shock! (((hugs))) It does take time to get back in the swing of things.

work sucks

but it pays the bills

if i didn't need the money i wouldn't be there... but like my standard of life / size of house too much to sacrifice.

i work part time. good thing about it is it gives me time with dc and makes me really treasure my days off with them.

good luck. i'm sure it'll get (a bit!) easier!

xxxx

Thanks for the quick replies.

It will get easier, I think I know that deep down, I just expected to go back and feel at home there again but I didnt really.

We also have an 11 year old dd but I was much younger when I had her so didnt have the same pressures of work so never had a 'going back to work' experience.

I think I might go into the office tomorrow with a 'just get through today' mentatlity, then anything more than that is a bonus.

I went back today as well after 13mths off and found it really weird too. Like I'd only been away a few days and also like it was a completely different world at the same time. Didn't have any actual work to do until just before I had to leave to pick up ds from nursery so spent most of the day just going through emails which was very tedious.

What I found worst (and wasn't expecting that at all) was having to do what other people told me (I'm quite junior in my team) having not had to do that for a year! (well other than the demands of ds of course )

I'm hoping it will get better once I've settled back in soon and I'm sure it'll be the same for you. It's just such a big change from being on ML

Ah snap cassell!

I found it was like being the new girl but a bit worse as your meant to know what your doing...

Spent most of the day deleting checking my e-mails too.

yes absolutely! couldn't remember anything - just as well I didn't have any proper work to do really

Me too! Don't you just hate how everyone is still moaning about the same old shit, even though you've went off and totally changed your life and created a new person

For some reason I had completely forgotten about office politics. That's what's annoying me. I just keep thinking "y'know what, I have way more interesting things to think about".

moan moan. sigh.

I started yesterday as well. It is just so weird that nothing has changed in 10 months, regarding to what people talk/moan about. We have had some major restructure so loads of people I used to work with have gone and my workload has just gone completely mad. No idea how I ever will catch up but I'm determined not to get too stressed.