DC is 5mo & i've been on ML since the beginning of august '09. i've worked full time for a small charity since october '07 & had a letter from my boss last week telling me that i was at risk of being made redundant because they hadn't been able to secure funding to continue my post. it went on to say that they hoped to secure funding by the time my ML ends in august, but if i wanted to come back before then they would try and find me other stuff to do, but it would prob only be part time.
i've now spoken to my boss about what the 'other stuff' would be, as i'd been intending to return in april (& in fact had been about to print out and send a letter stating my intention to return in 8 weeks time on the day i got the letter ). it came down to 2 options:
- 2 days a week doing face-to-face casework on the other side of london + 1 day in the office doing follow up work
- 1 day a week doing face-to-face casework on the other side of london + 1/2 day in the office doing follow up work + 1 day doing my old job
i should point out that my old job was entirely office-based, i have minimal experience of doing individual casework & don't feel entirely comfortable about taking on this role, and my place of work on that 1 or 2 days a week would change from somewhere 1/2 an hour away from my house to somewhere 1.5-2 hours away (i don't drive). this would mean i'd be away from my DC for 11-12 hours (the thought of which is making me come out in a cold sweat) & i'll still be breastfeeding him but expressing will be incredibly tricky (i know there's lots of legal stuff about this, but please believe me when i say that it'll be pretty much impossible). both options seem really crap, although obviously 2) is slightly more attractive than 1) (in the same way that a landfill site is slightly more attractive than an open sewer )
i have no idea what to do or what my rights are. i'm currently walking a fine line between feeling really down about this & wanting to stick my head in the sand & enjoy my ML and the time with my LO ... help??!