Before I had dd I worked as an IT Trainer. I always said I would be a career person but going back to work after maternity leave broke my heart so I left a few months later. I've done loads of different stuff since then but I just seem to wind up doing bits of this and that to make money and it's starting to do my head in now. For one I'm not making enough to make ends meet. DD goes to the school nursery atm and starts school in september. I want to stay flexible so I can always go to school events etc and pick her up from school. All the jobs I've found either don't pay enough or i don't feel I can do having been out of IT for nearly 5 years. I don't feel fullfilled either. I think it's because I know I can use my brain and I'm not doing. I'm becoming lazy as well and I used to be such a hard worker. Aaaargggh. Please someone come to my rescue and tell me what to do. Oh and I can't afford to retrain either.