A friend of my late DP views my story everyday without fail. I haven't spoken to her since before the funeral as everyone in DP's orbit was strictly instructed not to associate with me. (A lot of blame flew around in many different directions, but particularly in my direction). The only people who reached out to me at the funeral were promptly unfriended and then slowly distanced from me later.
I spoke to her a days before his death to arrange for her to visit him as I thought she might be able to help get DPs life back on track. His closest friends at the time were actively addicted, so I wanted her (and his old group of mates) to replace them to help him recover.
Should I try to speak to her? It's been nearly 3 years now and she doesn't follow me but does check my story everyday. I know that she has probably been told some vicious and uncharitable things about me surrounding DPs death. I don't really understand why she makes me a daily part of her routine without reaching out.
I suppose it's possible that she's passing on information to the his circles but I honestly can't imagine they would be interested in what I'm doing after so much time...
I have not been able to retain a single link with anyone from DPs life because I think the general consensus is that I (indirectly) caused or contributed to his death, and that view was expressed but thankfully shut down immediately by the coroner at the inquest with no further inquiry or exploration along that line.
So....do I reach out?