Would you leave a job that’s great in so many ways (flexible, hybrid, term-time working, 18 years in the pension scheme) but that you hate (the job is great I just don’t feel like I’m a good fit for it, have no relevant experience or training and regularly feel stupid, ended up in it honestly by accident through a really circuitous route involving someone retiring and a recruitment freeze)?
I have been doing the role long enough now I should have got over it/better at it. It is literally absorbing me and making me miserable even when I’m not working. Nobody has actually said anything and I’ve been told I have imposter syndrome, there are things I’m strong at but on the whole I feel like I’m lacking and don’t really fit in with the ethos of everyone else, and since I’m not career driven at all and would actually love to be a SAHM and never actually applied for this job, I don’t really care enough to acquire the skills and knowledge on my own time. I feel it’s really a job that’s a vocation, that someone should do because they really want to and actively trained for and applied for the role. It’s working with parents of children with complex SEN. I have my own kids with SEN and while I am working hard and I know I’ve had a positive impact on the families I work with I just want an easy job tbh that doesn’t take up any headspace.
I’ve applied for and been offered an interview for a job in a library. Still part time 20 hrs per week but over 52 weeks so lacking the flexibility, no wfh option, more childcare needed in the holidays (only for one, my other 3 are late teens) and £500 less at £1000 ish a month. Would I be bonkers?
Some of my friends say if they could blag their way through a job that had the benefits mine does they would stick at it. I’m just not a corporate girly, I’m a bit of a hippy weirdo and find it quite incongruous. I frequently forget things and get muddled up and always second guess myself, and constantly worry I’m going to make a meaningful mistake. Even talking on Teams meetings or making phone calls in front of people makes me die inside.
Somebody please give me some advice, would I be making a mistake going for the other job? Do I just need some counselling to stop hating my current job (which as I said is actually a good job, I just don’t feel up to the task and feel burnt out).
Losing the £500 wouldn’t cripple us but I am
already having to be careful with money, I’m not out here having takeaways and coffees and buying clothes, new cars etc and we don’t have savings.