I’ve worked for the local authority for 10 years, the last few years have just been constant changes, restructures, threats of redundancies etc… I’m absolutely miserable. I manage a team of 7 but currently only have 2 in post due to recruitment being blocked for cost saving. I’m so far behind on most things because I can’t run a team with no staff so I’ve been prioritising the important stuff but naturally less pressing things have fallen behind. A fortnight ago I had to have unexpected emergency surgery so I’m currently off sick and I’m so tempted to just hand my notice in and not go back. I’m in tears all the time at the thought of going back and also worry I’m going to end up put on performance management because I’m constantly criticised about stuff not getting done/the way I manage my team even though I’m trying my best with very little resources. Part of me thinks I should just quit while I’m ahead as any performance management is going to look awful on a reference. Aside from all that the wider team is bitchy and just not a nice environment. I was trying to stick it out because we’re TTC and the maternity benefits would be handy but I’m absolutely miserable and worried I’m going ruin my future staying.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated