I started a job in the Summer that I sadly I hate. It has completely screwed my mental health with how it busy it is and I feel like such a failure when I’ve always excelled in my work roles before. it’s all come as a bit of a shock but other colleagues I work very clearly think I should be as good as them at the job now, despite being theme just under six month, but frankly I just can’t keep up. I need to ask questions about unknown queries and I think they’re fed up with this as busy themselves. I can very strongly sense it by the way they behave or respond or if I do have to query something. It’s making me feel like such a burden and I want to walk away now as it’s just getting worse.
my boss is aware I may leave as we had a meeting the other week and I told her my worries and that I’m deeply unhappy. She doesn’t want me to leave she said, but did acknowledge that she felt I might resign although she doesn’t me to.
its making me feel so unwell, that I know I to need to hand my notice in next week, I simply can’t go on anymore like this. But the feeling of awkwardness and resentment they’re going to feel from being left to pick up the pieces as it were is giving me sleepless nights.
How do I manage to calm myself down and stop feeling like I’m in fight or flight mode?