Feeling guilty

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Feeling so guilty and bad, been in a job for about 2 months still on probation period.And last night was talking with my mum about the job role and how I didnt like certain things (cleaning mens toilets and they still come in using the urinels infront of me) and she was like that is disgusting just dont go back send a email right now.So I did felt very bad after just quiting like that and for leaving them in the lurch.What made it worse is that the manager reached out and asked if everything was okay and if they can help in anyway and that I have been a great worker so feeling very guilty.The hours and days were great but I just dont enjoy it not fulfilling. Yes there were male workers there and said they would clean the mens while I was there but they were never there in the evening and I had to go in there still, and not just that the womens was just as bad very messy some women, poo on toilet seat, tissue all over the floor, tampons sticking out the bin.I also have family things going on aswell and I was just like I cant do this no more.But im just feeling very guilty as I actually liked the managers and the other workers .But I was only there 2 months , my last job was worse when I left as was there for 4 years.But I just dont know what I want to do now I feel stuck

It takes someone with a strong stomach to be a toilet cleaner. You deserve a lot of respect.

It's disgusting the way some people treat public toilets. And there should be a sign you put up when cleaning the mens that declares the entire toilets out of use. And you can lock it from the inside while working.

I don't blame you for leaving. I hope you find something better really soon. If you're fine with cleaning there must be places where it doesn't involve toilets or at least they are not left repulsive.

Thankyou, there were times when I walked in and was like omg what an earth.I couldn't belive the womens toilets sometimes,We wasent allowed to close the toilets off or lock them from inside, but what really annoyed me was the men they can see the sign outside saying cleaning in progress and see me at the sinks and still went up to the urinels anyway.Thankyou im just trying to feel better as I still very bad for lewving them in the lurch like that when they have been nothing but nice to me.I hope I find soemthing else soon if I go down the cleaning route again maybe houses as they wont leave there toilets like that will they