Feel absolutely dejected.
Just come out of an internal interview, for a senior management role, for a maternity cover position. I don't sit in that team but know it really well. I just completely screwed it up. I felt that they were looking for certain answers from me and questions were worded in a clunky and unclear way, I kept having to ask for clarification and there were lots of follow up questions. I just felt I gave fluffy and unsubstantive answers and I'm so dejected as I worked and prepared so hard.
In my gut I knew I shouldn't have applied but the manager of that team persuaded me and I just thought oh okay then.
I had another internal senior interview in my team a few weeks ago (jobs are like buses) and I gave a really strong interview, really well worded answers, good examples and felt very collated. Unfortunately I didn't get that as the successful candidate had more strategic experience in another area. But they said it was extremely close.
I'm in a decent role now, but feel a bit bored and itchy. I manage a team and am seen as a strong performer. Unfortunately it's in a niche area so job opportunities are rare. I just feel a bit hopeless, if I can't get a senior job in my team or the team I work with a lot, what are my chances elsewhere? Honestly never felt so low and lacking in my own abilities.
Two unsuccesful interviews in a row has really knocked me back