I am very torn over what to do. I have a 18 month and 3.5 year old. My 3.5 year old has just started school and we pay £500 per month for my 1.5 year old for 3 days nursery. I work full time hours over 4 days. Small employer, very flexible. I enjoy my job but management is awful, lack of support but opportunities to lead department in 1-2 years which I am keen to do. They are amazing with the fact that I have children with flexibility. I don’t feel as though I have much of a work life balance and I’m unhappy at the moment but feel very attached to where I work, don’t want to leave and feel incredibly guilty as I know I do so much for them. But then I don’t feel appreciated. It’s familiar though, I’m good at my job and it’s close by.
I’ve been offered a new position, civil service with £8K pay rise and you get the pension. It’d be 5 days but I think 3 days a week at home. I’m just worried I’m not going to be challenged enough, I’m going to regret leaving and I’m going to hate it and regret leaving. I’m not good with change.
My company have said they don’t want me to go. If I want to discuss my position they will but they’ll leave it to me but they’ve said it’s going leave them in a mess and cause so many problems which I know is true. We’ve found recruitment hard in the past and I do a lot. They’ve left it to be to initiate discussions it feels and I’m not sure I want to.
My husband is adamant I need to go but I’m just second guessing myself whether it’s the right Decision. In an ideal world I’d stay I think. I suspect some of the changes I want like more support, funding a course they’d agree to. I’m just worried I’m going to regret leaving and there won’t be an option to return.