For context my background was working in education with disadvantage children, I done this for nearly 10 years! I left and done a whole 360 and became a cleaner and was instantly fully booked, self employed I do things on my own terms BUT it’s not all sunshine and rainbows being self employed is hard work and it never stops and honestly in the 18 months I’ve been doing it my body hurts!
I found a job randomly whilst scrolling online and it was a bit of me.. apprenticeship with local council, on the job training plus uni! Applied was successful in getting a interview I never actually thought I would be successful and low and behold I got offered the position! Fantastic!
But why do I now have the most awful anxiety! I have a million things floating around my mind…can I do it, is it going to be too much for me etc etc, am I mad going back into a employed role? The usual! The prospects once I am qualified will be fantastic it’s something I am so passionate about but I have serious imposter syndrome wondering whether I’m good enough and I’m actually so scared! I know it sounds pathetic in this a normal feeling? I just needed somewhere to let it out as I think my husband is sick of me 😂 I’m an awful over thinker and I’ve actually given myself a headache today!