I've never found it hard to find a job before but I've been looking for a year and I'm getting really down about it.
I'm mid-40s. I have an Oxbridge degree and MA. Between 2002 and 2019 I have an unbroken work history in the charity sector — from 2011-19 this was at senior management level, my last role in this period was as Marketing & Fundraising Director at a small-to-medium well-regarded charity.
I relocated in 2019 from London to another large city. Since then, I’ve been self-employed as a Marketing & Fundraising consultant, working for charities - I’ve had 15-20 decent clients and I’m pretty pleased with how it’s all going. I joined a really well respected organisation’s board and spent a 5 year term on there.
I’ve interspersed this with some part time contract roles - 2 fixed term maternity covers and 1 which I left voluntarily 18 months ago on amicable terms. Generally the contract roles have been a level below my last long-term position - manager not director - but I’m not too bothered by that. I’ve also diversified, so moved into adjacent fields like copywriting.
While self employed, I also started freelance writing and reviewing based around my field, and this is where it gets a bit weird. I’ve also edited a non fiction book which ended up doing really well, as these things go (good reviews in broadsheets, earned out its advance immediately, got invited to speak at literary festivals etc, deal for a second book). So with consultancy, writing and contract work, it gets a bit muddled. As recently as 2022 I was picking up contract work relatively easily, but nothing has bitten all year. Agents tell me my CV is “really impressive” but I don’t know if this is code for “a bit much” or something! I’ve been getting interviews, and down to the last 2 on several occasions, but nothing has worked. It’s clear that some combination of all this has made me less employable, but I’m not exactly sure what.
I know people say "just take anything" but I'm not even sure that the "anything" jobs are there for me either. I am self-employed with consultancy clients at a decent day rate, so I do have work on. I just want stability and I’m ready to go back in-house.
I'm finding it really hard to stay positive.
Is this something a career coach could help with? And how do I find one?