I have been with a toxic organisation (understaffed, chaotic, lots of politics, back stabbing colleagues, job not what was described at interview, I am treated less favourably from the rest of my team) for 3 years and this is my second time having to be signed off sick long term.
The first time for a complete breakdown two years ago and this time again for burnout. I also developed shingles as a secondary issue because my immune system is so run down.
I have already done everything I could to help myself after my first breakdown: I improved my diet, exercised more, had counselling and I take antidepressants.
My GP had made it clear that if my job is the issue I am just going to continue to have periods of recovery after I take time off followed by burnout and that, being in my mid-50s, I am putting my health at risk. They are happy to sign me off as long as it takes for me to recover and find somewhere else to work.
I am neurodivergent and have had episode of depression throughout my life (which I declared at work) but I have managed to have a career regardless.
My current manager though has always been reluctant to look at reasonable adjustments and when I got back to work after my first breakdown they were completely unsupportive and minimised what had happened to me. Occupational Health had to be involved and they reminded my manager that what I had was considered a disability.
I absolutely dread going back to this place (as I know the ridiculous expectation and unpleasant treatment will continue) and I don't know what to do.
I am applying for other jobs but so far no luck.
What is the best way to handle this?
I agree with my GP that I can't stay in this job long term but I don't want to give that company the satisfaction of just quitting and putting myself at risk financially...