Feeling really down and hopeless after fucking up a pre-recorded interview for a basic level (AO) job.
Earlier in the year I applied for two roles at the next level up (EO) both of which match my skillset - one in particular was spot on. Didn't pass the pre-recorded interviews but was close (obviously other candidates scoring even higher than the pass mark could have got the job even if I had passed). It's so frustrating and upsetting that these stupid interviews are so unnatural and being good at them doesn't actually align with being good at the job!
Anyway I thought I'd be in with a better chance going for a lower level AO role, but found the interview even harder than before. I prepared, considering potential questions, but two of the three questions asked were really not what I expected and I panicked trying to think of specific examples. On the online tests pre-interview I scored very highly (in top 7%).
It seems so ridiculous the way they want a specific example of a behaviour in detail, using STAR method. For example, if they want an example of influencing someone to change their mind - it's something I've done in small ways in previous jobs, numerous times, and in my personal life, but picking out a specific occasion that doesn't require loads of explaining of situation is impossible! Also seems impossible to break it down into several things to say about HOW I achieved it. (One of the questions was along these lines and I actually had quite a good example but it would have taken too much explaining the situation so I used a crap example instead and fucked it up.)
I am autistic, but am actually good with people, building a rapport etc, persuading and so on (worked mainly in care previously). But these interviews are so artificial, I feel so lost not speaking to an actual person, not interacting. When writing job applications I can pick out examples but it takes time - on the spot I'm rubbish. It's particularly difficult when it's a behaviour I do often but in small ways that I don't think about - trying to pick one example then pick it apart for STAR seems impossible. Yet I do the thing they want, I just can't explain it to them in the way they want!
People have recommended Civil Service jobs for the flexibility (ie. can work less than full time) and good practices around disability. Also I had over a decade out of work due to ill health (got degree in this time) so something that focuses on behaviours rather than experience should theoretically be great for me - but this is hell!
I graduated 4 years ago and am finding it so despairing that I can't even get jobs that are fairly basic. I am so so sick of having to do jobs that I could have got straight from leaving school. I wanted to get a foot in the door of having a career before ageism sets in (I'm 40).
Also, I gather that many job interviews now require STAR method type things. I miss the interviews of 15-20 years ago, when you could actually show interviewers what you could do, using more general examples and experience.
Any advice appreciated.
Oh also, it was suggested on here previously that I could ask for questions in advance ad a reasonable adjustment. This is not allowed - it specifically stated that when asking if there were any adjustments I needed. I did get extra time to think before answering questions but it was of limited use having an extra minute or two.