I've worked in my profession, or similar roles, for over 16 years. I started out young, with a mindset that has grown over the years. I developed my skills and am well thought of within my workplace. The years of experience have helped me develop as a person too.
I'm a mental health therapist. I currently work in a unit for women and children. Every day, and pretty much for the past 16 years, I have come to work and cared for others. I've worked with some lovely staff and some horrible staff. I've worked long hours and I've worked part time, all within similar roles.
I myself grew up in a very volatile environment. This put me on the path of wanting to help others, because I had personal understanding and experience. I could empathise with people and could draw from an understanding of difficulties. Over the last couple of years (I'm now 40), I have become increasingly unhappy within these roles. There is just no joy in my life, nor time for it. I'm a single mum who works full time. I have my 12 y/o 90% of the time. The times she's not with me, I'm so burnt out I just end up staying in bed, trying to recover from the constant tiredness.
I would love to bring more peace and joy into my life. I have this pull to move on now and do something new, creative and productive. I've been selfless all of my life, this is why I went into these roles, because I was always the fixer. I'm now ready to do something for me, something that doesn't deplete my own mental health. I'm not being the best mum I can be, due to constantly feeling emotionally exhausted.
I have considered something more holistic however, am unsure if this is already saturated. People will always have opinions but I really need a point in the right direction. My own wellbeing is being impacted massively now, and I am so ready for change. I'd love to do something that feels productive and I'm not afraid of hard work. I'd love to retrain and maybe still work 2/3 days a week, until I'm qualified in something else.
I need to take my power back now. It's time to put me first. Thank you x